BUSY BUSY WEEKEND!!!
BUSY BUSY WEEKEND!!!wow!!! weekend has been super bloodie busy..!!! tak boleh angkat!!! fridae was supposed to werk.. but i got a hella migraine!!! ever since i've been werkin ma ass out at gym and in skool.. i tink i've not been having enuff rest.. i've got INTER SKOOL TRACK AND FIELD on the 1st, 3rd and 11th August.. long distance run.. so therefore i've been werkin out twice than normal..tmr going to the gym again.. Mursh need ma help.. she wana lose weight.. i'm more than willing to help..Saturdae, 29th July.. ma kuzzie, Abang Kamal AKAD NIKAH on this dae.. his wife stayed at Jurong.. busy helping out and stuffs lyddat.. den at nite got wedding dinner sumore.. stayed til 2230hrs plus lyddat.. went home slept ma ARSE off...Sundae, 30th July.. the wedding day.. freakin hell lotsa ppl la.. i mean DUH!!! waddya expect???!!! a wedding i must sae.. FUIYOH!!! i'm the person handing out the berkat a.k.a "gifts fer the guest".. there's lyk "mat mat" motor as escorts fer the wedding couple.. gerek eh got this kinda escort.. i wan ma wedding to have this kinda thing too.. how about RED RHINO?? and FIRE ENGINES??? hahak~~! must be dreamin ah Fai.. WAKE UP LA!!! *hee*now i resting.. haven iron ma uniform fer skool.. soon aight after i update this shit..k la peeps.. penat!!! tired ah..love ya'll.. peace out!!MMMUUAAHHH~~!!!!

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fai BITCHED at : 8:34 PM
YAY!!!
YAY~~!!!!went to the beach with Aby just now.. so happie..k la.. tmr start skool..yay!!!okie that's all folks!!!HELL BREAK LOOSE tmr in skool!!!FAI IS BACK!!!

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fai BITCHED at : 9:04 PM
PROJECT PROJECT PROJECT
PROJECT PROJECT PROJECT!!!haiz.. so called just came back from store.. go do PIC proj.. meet up with Shikeen again.. she do her stuffs while i do ma stuffs.. ma brain can suffer damage and i can go bonkers any moment..abt the tanning thingy.. i dunno la kan.. dunno whether still goin or not.. Aby reject ma call and den i msg him also he never reply.. haiz.. dunno la kan.. sad.. but welll....just now while i was doin project, Az, the Ralph Lauren guy came down wait fer his gang.. hahak~~! he den told me that Eye is coming.. he'll be ther.. on the wae.. hahak!! wadda hell.. ok la.. Eye is cute la.. his real name is Ibrahim.. but they call him "I".. but i store his name in ma phone book as Eye.. easier to read.. more understandable.. hahak~~! funni huh.. on online can talk all the nonsensical stuffs but when meet face-to-face, due due malu.. bagos la tu.. hee.. den our shutter close ardi at 11pm den they park their bikes at the basement carpark, & i told them must go down the ramp back to the carpark.. den they waved goodbye and left.. biler dier senyum, sume orang pon bleh cair.. hahak~~! tak bole angkat.. da la da la.. even Shikeen also agreed that he looks cute when he smile..me and Shikeen then took the bus at Esplanade and went home.. she took 106.. biase la.. orang orang WEST side ni sume.. it's fun studying with Shikeen.. we'll talk about nonsensical shits but still do werk seriousli..hahak~~! next time shall study with her more often.. gerek.. and she can easily chat with anyone ah.. she now noes almost all the ppl's name werkin at ma werkplace..reali hope to go to the beach later with Aby.. haiz.. pls call me ASAP!!! haiz.. heartpain.. he say he'll call me once he reach home.. ish.. k la.. da nak get some rest fer a while.. ma brains cant function animore.. seriousli..gtg..da....................MMMUUAAHHH~~!!!!

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fai BITCHED at : 1:17 AM
THE SONG ROX!!!~
THAT SONG ROX!!!hmmm.. i just finish listening to the Mest song.. bloodie nice~~! totalli rox!!!i simply loves these parts of the song..."When your phone rings do you ever hope that its me?Do you ever dream of a day when we will still be?""I'm lost, broken, confusedBut I won't give up on youTonight I lie here all alone wondering what our future holdsAnd if my life should fall apart"___________________________________________________________________
i'm not gonna give up.. not now, not ever.. i've been trying very hard to go this far, y give up now??giving up means i lost to something i never even try of winning it.. no.. i'm not gonna give up.. i'll never noe wad the future holds.. therefore i'm not gonna give up.. not gonna let go..tmr mite be going to the beach with Aby.. to suntan.. it's been long since i went tanning..___________________________________________________________________
"she laughs at ma dreams but i dream about her laughters..." -Just the Girl by The Click 5..just finish watching the vid.. cool.. all so comel lotteh.. hahak~~!hmmm... k la.. wanna get some info fer PIC project liao.. haiz.. bloodie tired.. later goin down store to do project.. at home wanna do conferm i'll end up sleeping ma arse off.. conferm nye..da la da la.. gtg liao..Aby.. hopefulli u'll be able to make it to the beach tmr.. conferm wimme tonite k.. lub u..to ma laydees.. cant wait fer skool to reopen!!! yay!!!

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fai BITCHED at : 1:50 PM
LOST BROKEN CONFUSED -Mest
LOST BROKEN CONFUSED -MestDid you get scared standing alone in the crowd?
Did you give up when i was no where to be found?
Did you get tired of being left all alone?
Do you feel better now that your on your own?
There's nothing without you
The days once had are through
I'm lost, broken, confused
But i won't give up on you
Tonight
All I see is your face now on everyone else
Now I know how scared you were all by yourself
When your phone rings do you ever hope that its me?
Do you ever dream of a day when we will still be?
There's nothing without you
The days once had are through
I'm lost, broken, confused
But I won't give up on you
Tonight I lie here all alone wondering what our future holds
And if my life should fall apart
Would you still care?
Would you still care?
There's nothing without you
The days once had are through
I'm lost ,broken, confused
But I won't give up on you
I won't give up on you
I won't give up on you
Tonight___________________________________________________________________
hmmm... i dunno.. but this song's bloody lyric is damn bloodie good!!! NICE!! while waiting fer ma comp to load the songs, let's just read thru the lyrics and chill aight..
goin out to u baby.... i'll never give up on u.... NEVER...

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fai BITCHED at : 10:52 PM
HMMMMMMMM BLOODIE TIRED
BLOODIE TIRED~~!!!well.. lateli fer the past few daes been doing opening shift.. bloody mangkok.. haiz.. penat giler sei.. even though finish earli eh but the after-effect of opening reali sucks i tell u.. seriousli..hmmm... i din noe werds are being spread around store about me and Szam... NONSENSE eh all this ppl.. GET THIS STRET PPL!!! ME AND HIM NOTHING AIGHT!! JUST KINDA CLOSE AND THAT'S THAT!!! I NOE HIM THRU AMAN FOR HELL/FUCK'S SAKE!!! in case u guys have forgotten; let me remind u again.. i'm still werkin things out between me and Asad aight.. how can i give ma heart to someone else?? i'm all about Asad aight... and how can u guys even think that wae sei... i'm still holdin on fer him... so please... just stop all this shit.. i mite be ok with it in store but come on ah.. it can reali get on ma nerve.. i din sae aniting cos we are adults can think better... and besides i dun need to prove aniting to anyone..ok.. enuff angst..just now me and Ayu in totally grouchy mood at werk.. totalli no mood to werk.. we todae kept singing old skool songs.. from Take That la.. from Code Red la.. From The Cranberries.. from Natural.. haiyo all the boybands and shits lyddat.. hahak~~! tmr's Sarah's and Ila's last dae... gonna miss their nonsense.. hahak~~!Asad said that he loves me.. alwaes have.. but he dunno wad the future holds fer him.. fer us.. haiz.. reali miss him.. though i still get to meet him and stuffs.. i'm not his gerl.. haiz.. thinkin back, i reali screwed us up..oh.. talkin about the past.. got somethin exciting to tell u guys.. u noe there's this fella that me and ma gerls named as Wak Jang.. he kept msging me about wishin to have me as his and stuffs lyddat.. i never reply whenever he msg.. but i guess he seriousli dun geddit.. i thought when ppl dun reply to ya msg it goes to show that they DUN WANNA reply or totalli ignoring u rite?? well.. this fella seriousli din geddit.. reali man.. this has been goin on fer more than 3 months plus sia...!!!! until ystrdy.. he msged me asking whether am i asleep... and that he also said that he wish he could be there fer me that kinda shit. and den as i scroll down, he wrote "i'm still waiting............................" FUCK HIM LA!!! i totally cannot take it, i replied him as i was online with Asad.. i said "forget it la... stop waiting..move on" and he replied back saying "why forget it eh??" Asad told me to chill and just dun bother.. but bcos i alwaes dun bother to reply la he kept msging me!! msgs after msgs!!! FREAK SIAK!!! i replied him this "me and ma ex are werkin things out.. i still lub him.. no more shits!! me and u can never happen aight.. NEVER!! sorry.. i noe the truth hurts" ... i noe i'm being cruel.. but hey.. he needs to wake up from his BLOODY FANTASY!!!! and that was when he replied me his last msg(hopefulli).. "wow.. i'm DEAD.. thanks.. njoi and be happy alwaes.." he can listen and drown his tears in sad emo punk songs.. i dun care.. I HAD ENUFF!!!! i'm not trying to be mean ah.. i din mean to break anyone's heart.. i'm totalli serious about me and Asad getting back together... haiz... @ times u have to break to pull thru...okay enuff angst yet again...tmr Asad taking his TP fer his class 3 license.. all the best Aby~~! good luck! just rmbr wadever it is, i'm alwaes behind u giving ma support though i'm not there physically k Aby.. LUB U..da la da la..LAYDEES!!!! i miss u guys!!! ish.. reali reali cant wait fer skool to start.. LUB U LOADS!!!!PARTNERS OF SB-SN!!!! lub u guys too!!! just rmbr.. stop all the shits before i reali show out ma EMO SENSO..ASAD!!!! i miss u!! hopefulli get to meet u tmr.. LUB U MORE DEN ANYONE ELSE!!!! MMMUUAAHHH~~!!!

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fai BITCHED at : 8:46 PM
GOODBYE MY LOVER???
GOODBYE MY LOVER - James BluntDid I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to beI've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.(x2)___________________________________________________________________i dunnoe y i put this song... but well.. this song is kinda meaningful.. haiz....
well.. i was lookin at ma elder bro checking his frensta thing, there's this gerl hu wrote the caption as "i may look happie but deep down inside, i'm depressed..."
haiz.... i guess i'm not alone..
i dunnoe if i should sae i'm depressed.. well.. maybe at times.. like tinking over some u-noe-wad stuffs.. urgh~~!
aniwae, i went fer ma second interview todae at CK Tangs M.A.C todae.. i did a makeover fer Momo.. nice nice.. she loved it~~! i love the eyeshadow i did fer her.. she love her lips.. she said she din noe her lips can look so full.. she like.. i also like... hahak~~! basically i love the makeup i did fer her.. nt bcos i did it fer her la... but seriousli speakin, it's bloodie nice..
and Momo had a ferst makeover using M.A.C products and done by an un-professional makeup artist-ME.. hahak~~!
haiz.. just hope fer the best la aight..
aniwae.. right now, i'm waiting fer Szam to come over and pick me up to go to SB-OP pit.. at east coast..
ooops.. sorry.. no introduction.. Szam is new manager at ma store.. Nas(Aman's sister) fren..
wad happen b/w them is exactli lyk me and Aman i guess.. aniwae. wanna get change liao.. he's reachin any moment..
oh aniwae... me and him are just FRENS aight.. Dun get the wrong idea....
i'm still waiting fer him(u-noe-hu) to give the answer....

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fai BITCHED at : 9:22 PM
PAYDAY..
WELL... PAY'S OUT....hmmm... i paid ma gigantic amount of bill.. get stuffs fer ma next interview with M.A.C ardi cost me a bomb.. if wanna folo ma heart dun wish to buy.. but got no choice.. i realli want that job.. pray i'll get it..i bought fer Aby a jacket from Flesh Imp.. that's the onli amount that i can actualli spent on maself..the rest all i saving fer ma own necessities.. i'm broke.. ma pay was seriousli pathetic.. haiz...
Asad said that i shouldn't have bought fer him since ma pay was pathetic.. but well... he likes it, i bought it.. i dun reali care about maself one la.. like seriousli.. he happi can ardi.. put others ahead of me ferst...haiz... we are still werkin things out.. i'm serious this time round.. we did admit to each other that we love each other.. well he said to take things slow.. i'm willing..hopefulli Allah can see that i'm sincere and will open up Asad's heart..we spent the afternoon together though i'm on mc.. we came home earli as well.. i need to rest in case kena another attack..after Asad sent me home and chill around ma place a while, i sent him to the interchange and den he set off to his aunt's place.. to Kalami's, Adeq's and Bubu's place.. adeq and bubu bloodie cute siblings.. hahak~~! they have another younger sis.. very shy la that one.. but all the same..CUTE~~!k la.. i need to get ma rest.. take care peeps..to ma gerls.. MISS YA LOADS~~!!!to Asad.. I LUB YOU.... reali i do.... cross ma heart, this i promise u....

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fai BITCHED at : 9:50 PM
I CRIED.....
yo.. @ home now......aniwae... i cried again todae.....terribly... very very terribli......no... not bcos of BOYS, not bcos WORK or stuffs lyddat...but bcos i prayed.... yes.. i prayed after a bloodie long time....i asked Him for forgiveness.. for all the shits that i've done to maself.. to others.... especialli to Him..aniwae... the whole dae thru i cant help but to tink of Asad... yeah... missed him badli.. missed his touch.. his smile.. all i asked from the Almighty One was to open Asad's heart once again.. just this last chance.. "i'm reali sorry baby... i pray fer the day when i'll be urs once again... i pray that things will werk out alright fer us.. i'm reali sorry aby..."aniwae this song's goin out to him.....IT'S TRUE -Backstreet BoysEven the lovers makes a mistake sometimes
Like any other
Fall out and lose his mind
And I'm sorry for the things I did
For your teardrops over words I said
Can you forgive me
And open your heart once again?It's true
I mean it
From the bottom of my heart
Yeah, it's true
Without you I would fall apartWhatever happened
I know that I was wrong, oh yes
Can you believe me
Maybe your faith is gone, but is it?
But I love you and I always will
So I wonder if you want me still
Can you forgive me
And open your heart once again, oh yeahIt's true
I mean it
From the bottom of my heart
Yeah, it's true
Without you I would fall apart
I'd do anything to make it up to you
So please understand
And open your heart once again___________________________________________________________________
JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW -Backstreet BoysLooking at your picture from when we first met
You gave me a smile that I could never forget
And nothing I could do could protect me from you that night
Wrapped around your finger
Always in my mind
The days they blend 'cause we stayed up all night
Yeah, you and I were everything, everything to meI just want you to know that I’ve been fighting to let you go
Some days I’ll make it through, and then there’s nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there’s a day you’ll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to knowAll the doors are closing
I’m trying to move ahead
And deep inside I wish it was me instead
My dreams are empty from the day
The day you slipped awayAnd I just want you to know that I’ve been fighting to let you go
Some days I’ll make it through, and then there’s nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there’s a day you’ll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to knowThat since I lost you, I lost myself
I know I can’t fake it, there’s no one else
I just want you to know that I’ve been fighting to let you go
Some days I’ll make it through, and then there’s nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there’s a day you’ll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know
___________________________________________________________________haiz... todae Nani admitted to hospital.. SGH.. sorry.. no introduction.. Nani is Asad's grandm..i used to be at nani/nana's house often.. missed them.. wonder if they still recognise me, noes me.. haiz... all ma fault... reali miss them.. miss Bubu especialli.. ouh.. Bubu is Asad's sis... we used to be so close.. well.. used to... hopefulli will be again in future....Asad's not back at camp yet i guess.. maybe on the wae..? dunno.. later den i'll give him a call... miss him.. reali i do.. i wanna look to the future together with him alongside wimme.. we had lotsa dreams together... i wanna see it come true...damn..!! i'm cryin like a pussy again...shouldn have taken his love fer granted..i promise u Asad.. i'll change fer the better if it will make u happy and make this relationship werks.. i promise u this time round.. no more shits..."ya Allah... tabahkanla hati hambaMu ini.. bukakanla pintu hati Asad untuk menerima ku kembali...."

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fai BITCHED at : 10:33 PM
BLOODY HAPPY
BLOODIE HAPPIE~~!hmmm.. ferstli... in the mornin, went over to pick Asad up from camp.. he was on standby last nite.. met him at CCK mrt control station den we go fer breakfast at mac at Lot 1.. i surprised him with the shert from FLESH IMP.. so happy to see him happy..after that we took 190 to PS to catch a movie.. he din even tell me we are goin to PS in the ferst place.. we watched Silent Hill.. after the movies, we went to parkwae to grab lunch at Banquet and den we head fer his home... help him download some documents and songs.. practicalli we just chill.. haaaa.... so BLOODI HAPPIE~~!!!!aniwae. we are trying very hard to werk things out.. i ain't wanna give him shits no more.. HE'S ALL I EVER HAD... ma dreams came true thanks to him.. he believed in me when no one else did... he's ma inspiration, ma hope, ma other half.. once a part of me, alwaes a part of me....i wanna make things rite.. dun wanna do wrong... not to him.. not anymore..."Asad... if u're reading this now, i just wanna tell u that i'm reali sorry fer wad i've done in the past.. fer all the heartaches i caused u... i'm serious this time round.. i dun wanna lose u now nor ever.. i'll do aniting that is within ma will to make u happie... to make u trust me again... to be back in ya arms... basicalli just to be with you... i reali regret wad i've done.. i lost u once.. i dun wanna lose u again... let's werk it out aight... we'll werk it out...."PG lub BJ.. hopefulli BJ feel the same wae too...aniwae.. gtg.. sleeping time.. da.......remember ppl.. treasure wad u have now... u mite lose a treasure if u din take gud care of it.."you'll never miss the water until it's gone....."

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fai BITCHED at : 10:45 PM