Wednesday, August 30, 2006
OTAY!!! PICS!!!
OTAY!!! PICS!!!as i promised u guys earlier, here are the pics!!
29th August, Tuesdae.....
me and Pat in lab 6/204
relac nmpk....

Mursh and me in SR4..
ma TEAMMATES b4 POM presentation
Kalil.. nervous...

Yaya.. on da phone with Zai.. ooopps.. it's RUZAINI...
Mursh.. lookin out fer last minute editing..
aku.. just reading thru... more lyk scanning.. lol..
aku and Yaya
Syikin.. chill gerl!!!! dun b too stressed..!
after the presentation.. a sigh of relief....
Kalil.. sleeping.. if possible, he wanna put his whole head in the bag as well..
ma teacher.. Mr Steven Koh.. invigilating our presentation.___________________________________________________________________
30th August, Wednesdae.. (todae)

me.. in SR3..
aku!!! after cutting ma hair yet again!!!
Yaya dan aku.. (she just rebond her hair yet again!!)___________________________________________________________________
our ferst intention was just to accompany Yaya to go rebond hair.. but in the end, Mursh go perm yet again.. i cut ma hair yet again(this tym i've got the tail!!!).. and Pat just gave hers a lil trim..talkin about Pat.. she wanted to do eyebrow TRIMMING.. but we suggested she go eyebrow THREADDING instead.. and so she went with our suggestion.. i followed her la.. since Mursh and yay busy sitting down there waiting fer their hair to set.. and den in the shop.. while the auntie thread her eyebrow, she gave a soft shout.. ma gawd.. Pat ah.. Haiyo.. lol.. BLOODIE FUNNIE la.. den her eyebrow area all red and she covered it up with her fringe.. LOL..(i'm sorry Pat.. i'm still laughing at the incident.. LOL!!!!)k la.. gtg..aniwae.. all i wanted.. was to have a nice happy family portait..___________________________________________________________________Pink_-Family ortrait
Uh, uh, some deep shit, uh, uh
Momma please stop cryin, I can't stand the sound
Your pain is painful and its tearin' me down
I hear glasses breakin as I sit up in my bed
I told dad you didn't mean those nasty things you
said
You fight about money, bout me and my brother
And this I come home to, this is my shelter
It ain't easy growin up in World War III
Never knowin what love could be, you'll see
I don't want love to destroy me like it has done
my family
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do anything
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't
leave
Daddy please stop yellin, I can't stand the sound
Make mama stop cryin, cause I need you around
My mama she loves you, no matter what she says
its true
I know that she hurts you, but remember I love
you, too
I ran away today, ran from the noise, ran away
Don't wanna go back to that place, but don't have
no choice, no way
It ain't easy growin up in World War III
Never knowin what love could be, well I've seen
I don't want love to destroy me like it did my
family
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do anything
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't
leave
In our family portrait, we look pretty happy
Let's play pretend, let's act like it comes
naturally
I don't wanna have to split the holidays
I don't want two addresses
I don't want a step-brother anyways
And I don't want my mom to have to change her
last name
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
Let's play pretend, act like it goes naturally
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
(I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do
anything)
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
Let's play pretend act and like it comes so
naturally
(I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't
leave)
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
(I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't
leave)
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Turn around please
Remember that the night you left you took my
shining star?
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Don't leave us here alone
Mom will be nicer
I'll be so much better, I'll tell my brother
Oh, I won't spill the milk at dinner
I'll be so much better, I'll do everything right
I'll be your little girl forever
I'll go to sleep at night

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fai BITCHED at : 9:13 PM
HELLO HELLO~~!!!
HELLO HELLO~~!!!well.. i'm in WAD class now.. doin nothin but finding pics fer EBP pjct.. waitin fer Syikin and Yaya and Kalil.. later we have PIC presentation.. haiz.. STRESS ah.. DIE.. todae skool finish at 1100hrs.. i came to skool just in ma Havaianas sandals, ma TRACK n FIELD vest and skool skirt.. aaaggghhh.. mampos ah.. LOL.. Fai ni macam mintak sangat kene tangkap..(da kene tangkap pon!!!)
tmr.. there's gonna be training again.. ma body kinda aching.. but well.. gotten used to it.. yesterdae there was a netball friendly match against Commonwealth Sec.. walauwei.. they very LINCIS!!! the wae they move.. GOOD!!! tapi tak professional.. they dunno how to smile la.. all of 'em look cute though.. after the match den they lyk chill and ok la.. noe how to smile ardi.. aniwae.. Pat came down yesterdae.. LOL!!! and she's gonna turn up tmr too!!! YAY~~!!!
this coming Mondae.. my NIGHTMARE in the daylight.. 4th SEPTEMBER.. INTER COLLEGE NETBALL TOURNAMENT.. ma gawd!!! haiz.. last year ITE SIMEI won back the trophy.. champion fer last year.. they damn GOOD la.. but the wae they play rough ah.. i tink ah i kena one tym swing from them, i can fly sia.. they kinda big average size la.. i'm more to the petite tall that kind.. haiyo..later at nite i try to upload pics k.. that is if i'm not tired.. unlike yestaerdae, the moment i reached home around 2110hrs, i chill in ma room, wash up, eat, chat with asad fer a while and den i stret awae head fer bed.. that was freakin earli ya'll..lub u loads ppl!!!lub u Asad..

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fai BITCHED at : 9:34 AM
TIRED LA!!!

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fai BITCHED at : 9:23 PM
Saturday, August 26, 2006
CONVERSATION B/W ME AND HIM...
CONVERSATION B/W ME AND HIM...Asad: i just wanna say...i miss u alot sayang...Fai: Hmph..! Bluek..! Blupf..!Fai: wat wud ur frens tink.. I dunna live with that guilt or feeling that ur frens might tink u deserved better.. No..Asad: I don care wat my frens tink..wat i noe is tt i love u n u love me.. tts tt..if dey r true frens dey wud undstnd..u nanak weri k sayang..Fai: Reali? U always care wat about wat people tink.. Haiz......Asad: Is it rong if i wana chng 4 e betta.. 4 u..Fai: No.. Of course not.. it's just that i tink i'm the jinxed one.. I dun wanna bring u pain when we're in a relationship..Asad: We will jus 4gt abt e past n open a new chap k..Fai: I dun wan a new chapter.. I wan a whole new book.. Re write history..Asad: Ok.. we will write a good book k..Fai: Reali? I'm just scared.. Haiz....Asad: Don b k sayang..i m here wit u k..i will love u wit all my heart..n nt letting anitng cm our way..Fai: Reali?Asad: Reali sayang..i love u faiFai: I love u too asad..___________________________________________________________________there u go... i guess it's a whole new book den? haiz.. i reali dunno wad the future holds.. i do need him in ma life.. but well... the future is not our HANDS...Ya Allah... pls make this last.. i dun wanna fall and not being able to stand.. i dun wanna be in sorrow again..to all ma frens out there hu was there fer me during dae tyme and nite tyme and even wee hours in the morning..[u noe hu u are =) ] THANX.. nothing more that i can sae but THANX.. fer just being there.. fer listening to me.. fer accompanying me but sae nothing and just physically being there..i dunno y.. but sumting seems to be holdin me back.. haiz.. i guess.. it's just the feelin of scared in case HISTORY may repeat.. k la..LIFE GOES ON.. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FER A REASON... ALLAH NOES IT BETTER...

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fai BITCHED at : 9:09 PM
Thursday, August 24, 2006
TIRED!!!! SHAGGED!!! PISSED!!!! BAD DAE!!!!
TIRED!!!! SHAGGED!!! PISSED!!!! BAD DAE!!!!
me and Syikin on the wae back to ma place
well.. ferstly.. went to bed at 0440hrs in the morning just now, werkin on PIC PROJECT ASSIGNMENT 4.. Syikin stayed over ma place.. around 8 plus lyddat, went to block 242 to chill with Adil and Syikin's mat rider.. LOL!!! den i terserempak Faiz(ma primary skool fren) and asked him to join us as well..
Adil-Syikin-FaizAdil left ferst.. something cropped up..
after that the mat rider left fer werk and me, Syikin and Faiz left fer home..upon reachin home around 2145hrs, we start to do our project.. all the wae til 12 plus lyddat den we start to feel bloodie sleepie.. the onli wae was fer us to just hang around downstairs with OUR BOOKS!!! SO EXCITING.. i ajak-ed Adil as well..after getting the things needed fer the powerpoint slides, we just hang ah.. felt so tired, kinda fell asleep on the bench while Adil sketched us.. NICE NICE!!!
Fallin' by Backstreet Boys
SLEEPIE!!!
Adil.. staring into space??
lepak abes!!!!!
go home sleep la!!!
around 0330hrs, went home, finish up last sentence den head fer bed..WOKE UP LATE FER SKOOL!!!
the moment we reached class, we fell asleep.. slept like nobody's business.. MAMPOS AH!!!!
our brains cannot function ardi.. body felt so FUCKIN LETHARGIC!!!!
after skool, went fer training.. todae's training was kinda slack ah.. me and Syikin SLEPT OUR ARSE OFF in the bus on da wae home!!!
Shima BEGOK and me b4 training.. at Yaya's place
all wrapped up.. fai bobok...
Syikin and her kuzzie, Wan BEGOK!!!
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Asad msged me some stuffs todae.. he at ferst called me around 1430hrs while i was in skool waitin fer the other netball gerls to arrive to head to SHUQUN PRIMARY SKOOL..
he asked whether have i eaten?
not werkin todae?
tmr?
saturdae sundae?den after that he msged me things like"miss u sayang...take cr""i wana be hapi again.. i wish we cud be 2gether again minus all the sadness, unhappiness, arguments n 3rd parties.."
that was when i told him that we tried to werk things out, but in the end, we're going around in CIRCLES
this is wad he replied
"i myt nt hv tried as hard.i kept tinkin of the past..e pain ws so hard 2 forget..but i nid 2 erase all that 2 move on..i noe u hate me ungkit abt e past.."and that was when i just told him la saeing "as a matter of fact, i din see you trying or even tried.." after netball.. he told me saeing wanna meet up.. but Syikin staying over ma place again tonite.. i very much wanna see him.. but part of me dun feel like it.. as in... i just dun wanna get confused all over again.. dun wanna be in pain all over again.. haiz... felt so caught in between..he msged me "miss u sayang"
i replied back "miss u too =) "
he asked reely? and i just said yeah..i told him i reali do miss him.. but i just cant sae out those werds that i used to call him.. i'm gonna be left in confusion.. i also told him that it's hard fer me to just call him "BAI" or "ASAD"
he replied me this:
"i undstnd..it's ok..u don hv 2 force urself..i jus wana say sori if i cause u pain..love u sayang.."
haiz.... i cried on ma wae to Shuqun Primary and on ma wae back home.. it just hurts so bad..so wad if he still loves me?? we cant turn back time can we?? his frens will never like me.. i noe that's fer sure.. his frens judgement might matter to him i guess.. i dunno.. i'm just not good enuff fer him i guess...i'm bloodie happie to received fon calls and msgs from him.. but deep down inside, onli Allah noes..i dun wan in the end after all those waiting and hopes, and prayers, i'll end up in nothing but tears yet again.. i dun wan that to happen..FATE IS NOT IN OUR HANDS...might be meetin him after training next Thursdae.. haiz.....I AM SUCH A FUCKIN WEAK PERSON...!!!!
Oh Almighty One, give me the strength that i need.. i'm not as strong as u tink i am..

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fai BITCHED at : 9:24 PM
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
BAD DAE???
BAD DAE???NETBALL todae rocks!!! i like..
i still haven bathe..
tired ah..the moment i reached home, check ma mails, and friendster.. go MSN.. den do ma PIC proj.. haiz.. TIRED!!! ma brains not functioning siak!!!! haiz.....online with Asad now.. in foul sad mood.. neh.. nothing... ma frens said it's gonna take some time.. so just chill.. i noe.. i'm totalli chillin.. just that at tymes when i'm alone, i just cant help but to tink about him.. someone so close to me fer the past 2 years.. now i gotta wake up to the truth, that we ARE JUST FRENS.. now i dunno on ma bdae.. shud i rejoice cos it's ma bdae.. or shud i cry cos it's SUPPOSED ma anniversary with him....
damn.. i shudnt be feeling this wae..listening to "What If" by Babyface now..... DAMN!!!! i shudnt be having tears in ma eyes now..
i'm so cryin like a sissy now.. FUCK IT!!! ma shert's all wet..i gotta learn to forget everything abt him now..his IC number..
his ADDRESS..
his PIN CODE..
his PASSWORD..
his ACCOUNT NUMBER..
all the DATES..
practically EVERYTHING.. FRENS are not supposed to remember all this precious details.. all this discreet details..
if he wants the truth... well I'M TOTALLY NOT ALRIGHT.......
luckily this blooging system doesnt have a web cam shit.. i'm totalli cryin..
wish i was dreaming but it's real..............I HAVE TO BE STRONG.....
MA FRENS NEED ME TO BE STRONG....
MA FAMILY NEEDS ME TO BE STRONG....da la da la.. wanna stop crying ardi.. wanna upload some pics fer u guys ferst..haiyo.. now i cry.. conferm later ma eyes pain when wanna put on ma contacts..___________________________________________________________________
PICS taken on 210806
was drawing this while studying with Adil(Algorithm) at study area at Shinyi's house there.. serangoon Ave 2..around 1 plus in da morn..
after updating it abit
behind the smiles...........................
me and ma gerls..
me-GhimHuat-ThokHong
mursh and me
bored to DEATH..___________________________________________________________________
MY BIG MISTAKE - Delta Goodremamazing fairytale that had come true
Mr reliable romantic was you
blinded misguided in the arms of love
just 'cause it suited the both of us
then it all went wrong
i'm the one to blame
taking you for granted
in so many ways
when i look back now
how can i ever forget
you make me so happy
the day we met
how could something so magic magic
become something so tragic tragic
right before my eyes
two separate lives
every second was a precious moment
now i'm thinking about the path i've chosen
wish i could un-make my big mistake
my mistake
communication had broken down
this situation was out of our hands
well my hands
you've got to please understand
that i was too young, yes just
too young for that
i guess it all went wrong
and i'm the one to blame
but what i would give to have you back again
how could something so magic magic
become something so tragic tragic
right before my eyes
two separate lives
every second was a precious moment
now i'm thinking about the path i've chosen
wish i could un-make my big mistake
my mistake
the days the weeks the months
the years that we have wasted
i'm sorry
i still love you
i don't expect a call 'cause my apology's belated
i'm sorry
and i miss you all my life
how could something so magic magic
become something so tragic tragic
every second was a precious moment
now i'm thinking about the path i've chosen
how could something so magic magic
become something so tragic tragic
right before my eyes
two separate lives
every second was a precious moment
now i'm thinking about the path i've chosen
wish i could un-make my big mistake
my mistake
how could something so magic magic
become something so tragic tragic
every second was a precious moment
now i'm thinking about the path i've chosen___________________________________________________________________
me and Asad now online.. arguing about the past... haiz.. gtg..

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fai BITCHED at : 12:55 AM