Salam EidilAdha..

ferst and foremost, when i heard the takbir bergema just now, memories flushed thru me... "walkin" down memory lane.. what happenned last year, when i heard the takbir.. what happenned the year before, and a few years back..... the precious tymes i spent with ma family... where everyone is at home, on the dinner table, eating together while listening to the takbir.. after that watchin tv together.. playing board games maybe.. practically just chillin..

yeah yeah... those wer the daes... if onli things were still the same.. "yeah rite" i thought to maself.. it'll never be.. GET REAL.. maybe it's too much to ask fer huh.. yeah. maybe it is.. how can i expect things to be the same, when i maself noe it'll never be.. NEVER.. wishful thinkin on ma part.. i shouldn be having tears in ma eyes now.. i dun wan ma face to show signs of crying tmr.. haiz.....

wadever.... aniwae....

i was at home the whole dae thru.. woke up at 1523.. burning daylight.. check ma mail , eat lunch, continue reading ma book by Dave Pelzer.. Thanx Afiqa fer lending it to me..!! got ma menses todae.. damn.. been waiting since the past two weeks.. came late yet again.. ish..

Asad fetched me from werk yesterdae.. thanx Aby!! after that met Ama at Toys'R'Us.. den we went to eat at Qi Ji at Shaw Tower and den Raf and Haizam met us there..

a big apology to Raff.. sorry about yesterdae.. u noe waddai mean.. realli sorry babe.. hope u dun take wad i and Ama did to heart.. love ya..

after eating, Asad sent me home, bought food fer Boboi den me and Boboi sent him to the interchange..

after bathing and cleaning the toilet just now, i vacuumed the house.. my body felt like it's gonna start burning up.. i dun wanna catch a temperature.. no wae man.. maybe i need a lil bit more rest.. this is wad happen whenever i start to think about stuffs that will bring tears to ma eyes.. luckily i still have ma aunts and uncles to remind me to be strong.. especially Nenek Mami's family.. ish..

everything will be wonderful somedae ..... ???? hopefully.. i alwaes have faith in that.. Allah's alwaes by our side...

okie la.. to all ma Muslim peeps.. Salam EidilAdha..

to the rest, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

lub u Asad.. alwaes will....



if onli Singapore has this kinda view.. i'll go there whenever troubles and problems fills me in....


THE PEACEFUL AND SERENE.. a poem so calm.. so true..

Forever calm here, I adore this tranquility
Oh, the feeling of protection, noone here to argue or disagree
The eternal plane of rain, the upmost perfect theme
Noone here to wake me, from this larger then life dream

All of land looks so calm, gleaming and acrylic
Oh, the perfect landscape, the beautiful land so perfect and idyllic
Just like another heaven, where I can reside
This place where I can live forever, and leave my torment behind

I enter once my eyes shut, so the time I need to cherish
Oh, forever my domain, I label this mine until I perish
This is where I live, the only place that really touches my soul
The only place I can live, the only place where I am whole

This is the other side of the mirror, the only place I have lived
Oh, the serenity, the only place where I am forgived
Only in a time of sleep, when the gates of reality and fantasy are open
Then I enter a place of serene, and live this dream again

so long.. and good nite..

LYRIC THAT REALLI TOUCHED ME AND CAUGHT MA EYES..

IF I FALL -Amber Pacific

This is for the ones who believe their lives won't change
Hoping then someday things will mend and be the same
And this is for the ones who have lost it all and all that's left to gain
Is a simple reminder that the things that were blind to slip away...

How can I say...
Say I'll be okay...

And if I fall through these days that go by without cause
Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on
Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on

Now that the lines been broken
I'm too afraid to just look back
The pages have left an empty space
You were all I had
Why does it have to be this way
These things they'll never change
Still I'm left with knowing, content and happy, this is all I need...

And if I fall through these days that go by without cause
Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on
Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on

And if I fall through these days that go by without cause
Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on
Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on...

HEY YA..

aniwae.. i just finish deleting "FRIENDS" from ma frensta.. i mean .. this peeps whom i dunno added me and i accepted.. so yeah.. todae den i have teh tym to delete these "FRIENDS"..

heh.. cant wait fer later.. hanging out @ Ama's place.. Girls Dae IN.. heh.. ME, RAF, RUSTY and AMA.. and AMERICAN PIE MOVIES!!!! yeah!!!!!

hahak~~!!

just now Asad accompany me take care of Boboi.. todae i think me and Asad felt like babysitters.. boboi frens came, we just accompany them.. it was raining so i do what a babysitter gotta do..

hmm.. k la.. wanna go doze off ardi..

take care peeps..

love u Asad.. alwaes..

a lil some'in about me......

You Are a Plain Ole Cup of Joe

But don't think plain - instead think, uncomplicatedYou're a low maintenance kind of girl... who can hang with the guysDown to earth, easy going, and fun! Yup, that's you: the friend everyone invites.And your dependable too. Both for a laugh and a sympathetic ear.

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtfulBut you also haven't stopped thinking of yourselfYou're the perfect blend of independent and caringYou're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Your Makeup Look Is

Pale Lips with Big EyesA little classic, a little retro - you look fantastic in this high fashion look.

Your Ideal Hairstyle:

Light Edges

JESSICA SIMPSON.... damn.. how i adore her....

i'll be putting up songs by her that will realli kinda reflect me and ma persona..

i love this song by her, ANGELS.. both her and Robbie sang well..

this is going out to u Asad..

I sit and wait does an angel
contemplate my fate and
do they know
the places Where we go
when we're grey and old

'cos I've been told
that salvation lets their wings unfold

So when I'm lying in my bed
thoughts running through my head
And i feel that love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

[Chorus:]
And through it all he offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
and down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call
he won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

When I'm feeling weak
and my pain walks down
a one way street
I look above
And I know I'll always be blessed with love
and as the feeling grows
He breathes flesh to my bones
and when love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

[Chorus]
And through it all he offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
and down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call
he won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

I WANNA LOVE YOU FOREVER....

You set my soul at ease
Chased darkness out of view
Left your desperate spell on me
Say you feel it too
I know you do
I've got so much more to give
this can't die, I yearn to live
Pour yourself all over me
and I'll cherish every drop here on my knees

Chorus
I wanna love you forever
and this is all I'm asking of you
ten thousand lifetimes together
is that so much for you to do?
'Cause from the moment that I saw your face
and felt the fire in your sweet embrace
I swear I knew.
I'm gonna to love you forever.

My mind fails to understand
what my heart tells me to do
and I'd give up all I have just to be with you
and now I do
I've always been taught to win
and I never thought I'd fall
be at the mercy of a man
I've never been
now I only want to be right where you are.

Chorus

In my life I learned that heaven never waits, noooo
let's take this now before its gone like yesterday
'Cause when I'm with you
there's no where else that I would ever wanna be, no
I'm breathing for the next second I can feel you lovin me

Chorus

Forever (ooh)
I wanna love you forever
Everyday, everyday

FOR YOUR LOVE.....

You are every part of me
And with every breath I take
Your love will light my way
And for every day I live
The promise that I made
Is I will never let you go babe

I swear I never knew love like this before
And for everything you are
I gotta make you know
For your love

I'd give anything for your love (For your love, yeah)
'Cause baby I'd never make it alone (No)
And forever I'll stand by your side
I just gotta make you see yeah
I only live... for your love

When I was running out of faith
You still believed in me
And never let me fall
And the times I lost my way
You're the one who held me up
And brought me through it all

I swear I never saw it like this before
'Cause baby with your love you gave me
The reason to go on
And for your love

I'd give anything for your love (For your love, yeah)
'Cause baby I'd never make it alone (Don't you know)
And forever I'll stand by your side
I just gotta make you see yeah
I only live... for your love

And everything I am
And all that I could be
Would mean nothing now
If you're not with me
Shinin' your light on me
When night is closin' in
When I was weak
You were the one who made me strong
You gave me faith to carry on (ohh)

And I'd give anything for your love (I'd give anything now)
'Cause baby I'd never make it alone (I'll never make it alone)
And forever I'll stand by your side
I just gotta make you see yeah
I wanna live for your love
Wanna sing for your love
Wanna give your your love

I'd give anything for your love
'Cause baby I'd never make it alone (Oh yeah yeah)
And forever I'll stand by your side....

I LOVE U ASAD..
ALWAES WILL..
Congrats on passing ur TP.. 201206.. a date to remember..
lub u loads..

BITE ME..
when i'm realli angry, I'M MEAN.. it's like sumthing more powerful, empowered me.. the name is RAGE..

i BITE.. i realli do..

just dun push the limit.. i'm serious here..

i'll BITE.. i will...

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i'm quiet doesnt mean i'm ok about it..
i'm giving u time..
to realize the wrongs that u've done..

i'm pissed doesnt mean i HATE u..
i'm giving myself time..
to cool down and at the same time giving u the hint
that u did something wrong and have to amend it..

i'm just Fairuza..
me_being_me..
i'm hard to understand..
easy to judge..

wad i am on the outside doesnt mean i'm wad i am on the inside..

if u wanna judge me, KNOE me..
(but tinkin again.. hu are u to judge me??? u're not Him.. u're not the Almighty.. face it.. U'RE NOT ALLAH.. we're just His humble servants...)

cold blooded on the outside, but warmth fills me totally on the inside..

if u piss me off, the warmth gonna get hotter and hotter till it reach the BOILING POINT..

u wudnt wanna see that part of Fai.. TRUST ME..

just dont push the damn wrong button............

love u loads Asad.. alwaes will....

IT'S BEEN A LONG TYM COMING Y'ALL..

okie okie.. i noe.. it's been a freakin long tym since i actualli blogged.. i mean i've been busy taking pics and hanging out and studying that i just dun have tym to actualli sit in front of the comp fer several hours animore.. i onli use the comp to check ma mails and friendster.. haiz.. now.. is the time..

PICS PICS PICS!!!!


me and boboi on the 081206.. on search fer his belated bdae gift

outing with kuzzies also celebrating Syahidah's bdae in advance...


the bdae cake hich we took a freakin long tym to find..

the gerl celebrating her bdae soon enuff

tryin to blow out the candle...

cutting ceremony

apiq step nak ade bdae jugak...

the ghurl kuzzies

girlband huh...