AT LAST...

at last ma room is neat and in tip top condition! at last ma room lookis like a room. before that it looks like kandang babi(pig-sty). haha~~! at least Aby would be proud of me! all it needs now is a touch of lilac or pink or purplish pink. maybe RED.. on the wall. i dunno.. will decide the colour later with Aby. he's at werk now.. tmr we'll be werkin so near with each other. same timing. different place. heh.. LUB U ABY!!!! tmr we shall clear the "library" k. love.

aniwae. to Azimah's younger brother, Asanul, happie birthdae!!! unfortunateli, momo, i cant take over ur shift tmr. i've to take care of ma younger bro and then clean up my library. as in ma freakin BOOKshelf also known as BOOK CABINET. loads to get rid of. i'm realli realli sorry Momo. wish ya bro fer me.. and yeah. me and Evelyn sempat chat on the phone and gossip abt ur younger bro. he's cute. evelyn called him the "good-lookin" one. i called him the one with the mole on the cheek but still looks "oh-so-sweet" hahak~~!! if he's reading this beside u, tell him, "da suda.. takya nak blush blush atau rase malu malu.. be proud, but humble" aniwae all u siblings got the GOOD LOOKS la. Duh..

ok. i'm beat. i'm tired. spent 4 freakin hours on cleaning up ma room. now, if u were to open ma cabinet, there's still empty spaces. thank GOD. ma body is aching. pushed one bloodie old sideboard of 2.5m*0.5m in length outta ma freakin room!!! now ma room looks spacious. and yeah. i'm gonna add more mirrors in ma room. so that it'll make ma room looks bigger. and i might need a study desk. i dunno. (that is if RP accepts me. croosing ma fingers now.)

i need to make ma room looks more girlish now. i mean i've been living in a room like a freakin jock, high skool kied who trash things around. NO. NO MORE OF THAT SHITS. NO. gotta put an end to it. i'm like turning 20 in a couple of daes. doing this as a favour fer maself. heh.

k la.. wanna watch final destination that's abt to start.

GHURLS> I MISS U BADLY..
CLASS KL> I MISS GOING TO SKOOL AND CREATING HAVOC!!!
ASAD> U KNOE I LOVE U. ALWAES WILL.

loadsa tym to spare..

kinda just came back from Sher's place.. we bake cookies... just like the wae we used to.. suddenli felt like baking cookie ferst thing when i woke up.

ama.. sorru abt ur Photoshop cd.. will pass to u tmr morning aight.. realli sorry abt it.. long overdue.. i'll pass ur books and Raff's as well..

haiz..

Asad is kinda sick.. just got a difficulty breathing attack just now.. maybe later he coming over to collect his cookie. (lub u loads Aby!!! i dun care wad others might think)

tmr i'll be going to Kak Hetti's frens's wedding.. an Indian wedding.. ferst tyme going to an Indian wedding.. wow.. i'm nervous.. actualli dun feel like wearing traditional clothes. but have to. damn!

k la.. til later.

ponder over this:---

"when u cry.. does the other person knoes? if he does, will he feel ur pain cos he knoes he's the one who caused it??? or will he laugh cos u are weak "thanx" to him??"


Weakness-sumone known as Santa Satan

Its hard to talk
My throat closes in pain
My eyes sting
Tears well up and fall
Pain, love, and hatered are all mixed
The three become one
The one consumes me
Body and soul
Tired of holding back
Tired of never letting go
Hold everything inside
The one becomes three again
The three each turn to sadness
Sadness into darkness
Darkness into lonliness
The tears are stronger now
They well and flood
Strems to rivers
Rivers to oceans
Oceans with in my dark soul
Tears cried on the inside instead of outside
Many tears and much pain
Anger at others
Anger at myself
Tears are a sign of weakness



to that fren of mine. u wanna knoe HURT??? dun even think abt it. u haven seen it haven u? all MY-used-to. look at this few pics and ponder.


i punch walls and puff to make it all go awae.
i filled maself with hate.
i filled maself with anger.
i filled maself with pain.

u wanna talk to me abt hurt?
i dun even plan to put this pics up.
cut myself to pieces.
freak am i right?

do u think it's worth it?
i slit. i cut. i puff. i live in ma own werld. i drove myself awae from ppl who was my frens.
do u think i became happier after all this shits??
i've said it tymes and again.
i knoe it's hard. i knoe. i once felt the same wae as u. but i was dumb.

i knoe u guys must be saeing that "hey. y bother?? u're not in ma shoes now. u're happy with ur guy. u duuno how i exactly feel."

maybe if anything happens again between me and Him. i dunno. i'll be farawae gone. y must i kill myself slowly.. with slits.. with tears and in pain. once and foreall. finish.

this is where FRIENDS come to ur help.

I'M HERE. WE ARE HERE. SHARE WITH US UR PAIN. WE'LL HELP U PULL THROUGH. WE KNOE U CAN DO IT. STOP THE DAMN TEARS! I KNOE IT FRIGGIN HURTS. BUT U HAVE TO BE STRONG. FOR URSELF. FOR UR FRENS. FOR UR FAMILY. U'VE BEEN LIVING 18 YEARS W/O HIM. UNTIL HE CAME ALONG. AND YES, HE LEFT. Y HURT URSELF. Y SHUT URSELF? Y NOT ALLOW USRSELF TO OPEN UP TO OTHERS? I WANT THE OLD U BACK. just that. a favour from a fren.

was lookin back..

apparentli.. i was thinkin.. in solitude.. about the past. things that i've done wrong. things that could've happen but should not happen.. mistakes. hearbreaks. jokes. laughters. cries. hugs. kisses. misses.

FRIENDS..
wad wud a werld be w/o them?
will i be wad i am todae?
will i stay the same tmr?
funnie how it seems..
8 years back, i finish my primary school with hugs and promises to not change. have i?
4 years back, i left my secondary school with tears and promises to stay in touch. did we?
now?
there are friends that i wished could still be here.
so near but bloodie so far awae..
now we meet like kinda strangers. or "i-know-u-once"
i remembered in secondary school..
4 of us. the W-I-S-E.
Weird
Immature
Siao
Extraordinary.
childish as it may seem now.. but the tymes we had. one werd. WOW!!
the tymes whereby we were punished, standing up. the laughters. our rebels. the tymes whereby we can just stay in the damn toilet 4 half an hour just to escape Social studies period. the studyin at airport. damn.

i still study at airport. those flashbacks. our "area" is gone(just like our friendship). airport changes(just like us). we cant walk back to terminal one after studying at viewing mall at Terminal 2 anymore.

ppl still do ask me. why airport to study, fai?
i smile. i lied. "it's peacful", i said.
no. it's not the peacfulness.
it's the memories that kept me going back. the memories of high school.

y serangoon mac to meet?
it's the memories of primary school..

in solitude. here i am. shedding stupid tears over ma keyboard. in front of ma comp. it's not as if these 2 shits understand at all. EMO huh.

well.. that's it fer now.

MISS ALL OF U GUYS ALOT.. realli i do..

BOREDOM IS KILLIN ME.. a little..

werk is pissing me off.. just bcos i give ma schedule on Thursdae MORNING, i have to do attachments at other store.. wadda fuck.. nonsense siak.. padahal da inform pe semalam that i'll be giving him ma schedule this morning.. BINGIT SAK.. den ask me y i this week give schedule late.. i alwaes give on thursdae one wat.. URGGGHH!!! and i ain't putting too much hope in the other job as well.. da mampos tak layan.. now.. all i gotta do is to find another JOB!!! i need a freakin job badly..

askin Aby fer help on that.. luckily got Aby around.. i can ask him fer advice.. the other place pulak msg the store amnager den dunno reply.. BAD BAD BAD impression.. the other saturdae told me this week training cancel due to trainer not free.. den yesterdae msg him abt whether i fitted in next week schedule, dunno how to reply.. bloodie.. later tell me last minute, i more MAMPOS TAK LAYAN!!!! perangai satu satu mcm soyal.. URGGHH!!!!

boredom is killin me.. badly.. i need to find OCBC bank badly.. financial crisis..

URGHHH!!!!

i'm bored.. i'm pissed.. i'm a lil grouchy now.. i waited and waited fer ma menses to come but to no avail.. wadda hell!!!!

i dun wanna stay home.. somebody please gimme things to do!!!!

sobz sobz..

BORED.. yet on cloud 9

All my bags are packed I'm ready to go
I'm standing here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breaking it's early morn
The taxi's waiting; he's blowing his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

[Chorus]
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cuz I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
But I'll tell you now they don't mean a thing
Every place I go I'll think of you
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring

[Chorus]
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cuz I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

And now the time has come to leave you
One more time; oh let me kiss you
Close your eyes and I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times when I won't have to say

[Chorus]
Oh kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cuz I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

But I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe I hate to go

I'm leaving on a jet plane[9x]
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no special reason to post this lyric up.. just feel like it.. been singing this fer quite some tym.. bloodie sweet song.

aniwae.. todae.. even though i was at home the whole dae thru.. i was happie. as i have Aby by ma side.. with ma family as well..

tmr.. i made plans.. plans to get back to basic. as in.. yeah..train maself again.. i decided to walk up the whole flight of stairs with ma elder bro's dumbbells in ma haversack. hmm.. hopefully get to wake up earli.. boboi will be having his soccer selection tmr.. good luck..
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ma fireman.. this man here dont put out fire. he keeps the passion and love BURNING in ma HEART.. lub him loads!!!!


in da bus after our dae at Wild Wild Wet..

FUN FUN FUN!!!!!!

ok la.. wanna have a rest maybe..

and oh yeah.. Singaporeans!!! ONE LOVE. peace out aight...

oh btw.. check this shit out man!!! bloodie hell it rocks!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k4Xci2YSxqE

JUST CHILLIN AROUND.....

i wanna watch ADA APA DENGAN CINTA again!!!

haha. random i noe.. but cant help it ah..

i can watch this show freakin zillion times and not get bored.. i tink Indonesian films are better.. especially love teenage film..

this part is taken from the last part of the movie whereby Rangga left and gave Cinta his diary. bloodie hell.. so sweet.. touchin..

*sorry if there's error

"perempuan datang atas nama Cinta.
bonda pergi kerna cinta.
dikenanginya racun jingga dalam wajahmu.
seperti bulan dalam tidur di hatimu.
yang berdiri gelam dan kedinginan.
ada apa dengannya?
tinggalkan hati untuk dicaci.
lalu sekali ini aku lihat kadar syurga dari mata seorang hawa.
ada apa dengan cinta?
tapi aku pasti akan kembali.
dalam satu purnama.
untuk mempertanyakan cintanya.
bukan untuknya.
bukan untuk siapa.
tapi untukku.
kerna aku ingin kamu.
itu saja."



dad just left werk. mom just got back from werk. boboi is still playing with his friends. Asad is in the next room sleeping.

bored yet again.

k la.. wanna check out some stuffs on youtube.

toodles!!!

MONDAE BLUES.....

well apparently.. i've been karaoke-ing at home with ma bro and his gf.. parents werkin.. younger bro out playin with frens.. no plans todae.. actualli have la.. but din go ahead with it. sorry Kirk.. lazy ah..

i was viewing ppl's blogs and stuffs lyddat.. bloghopping.. something which i dun do actualli.. but just feel like doin so todae. i was reading someone's blog and she introduced her readers thsi blog to go too.. ma gawd!!! bloodie bloodie tempting i tell u... check out this blog.. will kepp u saluvating at all cost!!! that's fer sure..

http://cupcakeblog.com

ma gawd ma gawd.. yum yum!!!!

ish.. i'm bloodie hungry now i tell u.. if onli ma mom could repair that old broken-down oven of ours.. i'll be baking and trying out new stuffs everydae i tell u.. especially noew since i'm done with skool.. just waiting thru Poly Provisional Exercise(PPE) for RP to accept me so that i can continue ma studies after Higher Nitec..

URGGH!!!! boredom is killin me.. i din put any schedule fer werk this week except fer Sundae.. thanx to plans being made tapi tak jadi.. ish.. pissed.. but wadda hell..

i'm bored..

bored..

BORED!!!!!

Asad is now at Tiong Bahru plaza.. ferst dae orientation back at CBTL.. onli training there.. posted to Airport.. our place.. the place that i ferst land ma eyes on him on 16 Dec 2003 around almost midnight.. his mancong sharp nose and thick eyebrow caught ma eyes.. thank gawd i found him.. damn i'm bloodie in love with him!!! fell in love over our passion of making a great cuppa. the aroma. body. the acidity of the coffee...

i'm bored!!!

somebody save me from this boredom please. anione knoes how to make fast cash? since i'm outta skool now and onli relying on ONE job.. i need 2 jobs maybe to keep me occupied.. but that other place still have yet to get back to me.

i can do babysitting-reading to toddlers-tuition primary 3-5 kids.

urgh!!! anything.. anything.. ma gawd!!!!!!

i'm dying of boredom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well HI..

this is ma yesterdae's post. yesterdea cant publish dunno why.. so here it is..

i kinda at home now with practically nothin to do.. went to Downtown to play Escape with Aisyah. supposed to be with Yaya and Syikin.. but last minute plans so yeah.. FIGURES!

upon reachin home at half past 6 just now(WOW!!!), i just lazed around cookin fer maself a bowl of instant noodles.. watching the evanescence of the evening mist. haiz..

waitin fer ma mom to get me dinner..

i tink i might be gettin ma "blood-dae" soon. i kept eating and eating and feel irritated at the slightest thing. hee.. sorry yeah..

aniwae.. i'm missing skool ardi.. the fact that i finish with HNITEC kinda saddens me.. ITE.. not a bad place i tell u.. i enjoyed maself.. a place where we can have both the fun and serious-ness.. waitin til mid-april to see if there's a place fer me in Poly.. i opted fer Republic Poly. Diploma in Customer Relationship and Service Management. a new course. wunder if i'll get in..

lately.. this is wad i conclude.

i let ppl judge me. wadever they wanna sae. cos at the very end, they will have to look at themselves in the mirror. call me wadever. i mean seriously.. u ppl should get a life. not big enuff? how abt this? get a life. or maybe this. GET A LIFE!!! just bcos i'm happie. just bcos i get to do wad i wan most of the tym doesnt give u an inch of right to ridicule me. i mean.. HELLO!!!! wassup with that.

got an issue? talk abt it.. settle.

"gossiping tells u more abt that person than it does abt others" (feel the pinch?? ouch!!)

haiz.. dun understand.. and dun wish to understand cos i'll never understand.
to ppl who feel the same wae as i do.. heck with it ya'll.. LIFE IS GOIN ON GREAT FER US!!

its sad really.. when ppl of the same race, same language, same dialect talks shit. abt each other. WHICH IS UNTRUE!!! well.. if ppl of differences talks abt each other.. maybe acceptable la.. but... haiz.. TYPICAL huh..

i dunno y my entry todae is lyddis.. sofull of angst i guess.. but just have to get ma point across.. u noe waddai mean. i dun need ppl to hear me. to feel me. JUST READ ME.

have an early nite ppl.

PEACE OUT.

oh yeah. one more thing. if its bcos of what i am irks u big tyme. (lyk ma size. ma figure, me metabolism rate or anythin lyddat) do something abt it. do something fer yaself. that's wad i mean of course.

endin this post with a lyric from Evanescence. THE LAST SONG I'M WASTIN ON YOU. and a song from Avril Lavigne-Nobody's Fool. ponder over it. especially the highlighted bold ones.

Sparkling grey
Through my own veins
Any more than a whisper
Any sudden movement of my heart
And I know, I know I'll have to watch them pass away

Just get through this day

Give up your way, you could be anything,
Give up my way,
and lose myself,
not today
That's too much guilt to pay

Sickened in the sun
You dare tell me you love me
But you held me down and screamed you wanted me to die
Honey you know, you know I'd never hurt you that way

You're just so pretty in your pain

Give up my way, and I could be anything
I'll make my own way
Without your senseless hate....hate...hate.....hate

So run, run, run
And hate me, if it feels good
I can't hear your screams anymore

You lied to me
But I'm older now
And I'm not buying baby

Demanding my response
Don't bother breaking the door down
I found my way out

And you'll never hurt me again

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Fall back, take a look at me and you'll see
I'm for real, I feel what only I can feel
and if that don't appeal to you
Let me know and I'll go cuz I flow
better when my colors show.
and that's the way it has to be.
Honestly, cuz creativity could never bloom in my room
I'd throw it all away before I lie,
So don't call me with a compromise
Hang up the phone I've got a backbone stronger than yours.

(step up) la la... (step up) la la... (step up) La la...
Yeah...
If you're tryin' to turn me into someone else
It's easy to see I'm not down with that
(Not nobody's fool) I'm not nobody's fool
If you're tryin' to turn me into something else
I've seen it enough and I'm over that
(Not nobodys fool) I'm not nobody's fool
If you wanna bring me down
Go ahead and try
Go ahead and try.

Don't know you think you know me like yourself,
But I fear that you're only telling me what I wanna hear
But do you give a damn?
Understand that I can't not be what I am.
I'm not the milk and cheerios in your spoon.
It's not that simple here we go not so soon.
I might have fallen for that when I was fourteen
And a little more green,
but it's amazing what a couple of years could mean.

If you're tryin' to turn me into someone else
It's easy to see I'm not down with that
(Not nobody's fool) I'm not nobody's fool
If you're tryin' to turn me into something else
I've seen it enough and I'm over that
(Not nobodys fool) I'm not nobody's fool.

If you wanna bring me down
then go ahead and try
go ahead and try.

Oh...
Go ahead and try
Try to look me in the eye but you'll never see inside
Until you realize (realize)

Things are tryin' to settle down
Just try to figure out
Exactly what I'm about
If it's with or without you I don't need your doubt in me

If you're tryin' to turn me into someone else
It's easy to see I'm not down with that
(Not nobody's fool) I'm not nobody's fool
If you're tryin' to turn me into something else
I've seen it enough and I'm over that
(Not nobody's fool) I'm not nobody's fool
If you wanna bring me down
then go ahead and try...

(Go ahead and try) La la... (Go ahead and try) La la...
Yeah...Go ahead and try
You'll be laughing out loud when I'm playin' to my own crowd
Try...
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lalala.. doodeedoo..

I DUN GIVE A SHIT!!! I DUN GIVE A DAMN!!!!

I'M BURNT!!! still had fun though..

hey hey hey.. been a long tym e since i blogged.. well.. i'm so so bloddie tired right now.. just wanna update some stuffs.

went to Wild Wild Wet todae with ma dear Asad and ma younger bro, Boboi.. we realli enjoyed ourselves.. we played all the stuffs there.. well.. i din play one.. just one.. i dunno wad's the name but it has a very steep slope in which 2 persons sit facing each other and off we go downhill.. NO NO!!! not fer me.. hahak~~!

i'm burnt.. while washing ma face with facial scrub, (ouch!!!) damn, it hurts badly..

ma face is like it's naturally flushed.. rosy pink burnt cheeks.. hope it'll go awae soon..!!!

after WWW, me and Boboi went to our aunt's house at Yishun... den Asad came with his Daddy's van and sent me and ma family home.. Thanx Aby!!!

k la.. now i'm sleepy.. bloodie bloodie sleepie to be exact!!!

k la.. so long and good nite!!!

FELT GREAT!

well apparentli.. i'm not feelin great bcos D2K din make it.. but bcos i deleted most of ma entry in ma blog. those that are of BAD past. i dun wish to remember it. NOT AT ALL. me and asad are now happie with each other. nothing's gonna change it. i love him and he loves me too..

well D2K.. it's ok. easier said than done i knoe. but life goes on. as i said. u guys are good. u guys knoe it yaself. love u guys.

i love u asad. alwaes. studying alone at airport later. weekends i wun be free. damn!

sat.
morn-foll0w ma fren go interview.
afternoon-go to the bachelor thingy at Vivo
evening-go ma kuzzie's chalet
night-ma fren's wedding dinner

sun.
ma fren's wedding!!! CONGRATS ABANG IZHAR and KAK LIN!!!!

ok. nite! MURSH!!! GET WELL SOON!

SONGS THAT MAKES ME THING OF ASAD.. huggz

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

-Wonderwall by Oasis

But I'm not gonna run
I'll stay, won't be gone
Wherever you are you'll see
There's nobody there but me

Not Gonna Run by Avril Lavigne

All that I got is you
And I'm so thankful I made it through

All That I Got Is You by Mary J Blige feat Ghostface Killah

The worst is over now
And we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high and steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn
And no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

Broken by Seether feat Amy Lee

i love u Asad. alwaes.

BECAUSE U LOVED ME- Celine Dion

all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love i found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when i was weak
You were my voice when i couldn't speak
You were my eyes when i couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when i couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything i am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand i could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and i stood tall
I had your love i had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe i don't know that much
But i know this much is true
I was blessed because i was loved by you

You were my strength when i was weak
You were my voice when i couldn't speak
You were my eyes when i couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when i couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything i am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when i was weak
You were my voice when i couldn't speak
You were my eyes when i couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when i couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything i am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when i was weak
You were my voice when i couldn't speak
You were my eyes when i couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when i couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything i am
Because you loved me

I'm everything i am
Because you loved me


this song's goin out to ma one and onli Asad. i'm everything i am thanx to u and ur love. no werds can really state how much i really feel fer u. damn! 35 months since we got together. blimey! i'm so so so in love with u sweetheart. i have onli Him to thank to have and feel ur existence in ma life. cant imagine ma life w/o u. an experience is enuff to tell wad a fool i am to not have u in ma life..i realli realli love u loads sweets. more happiness to come! cant wait to see u later to go to Momo's engagement. see ya at Momo's place je la k.

MMMUUAAHHH~~!!!!

p/s: mursh is fine now. she's resting at the hospital. her surgery has been successful. Alhamdulillah.

MOMO'S ENGAGEMENT

close fren of mine getting engage.. hmmm.. Momo.. remember when Huda brought her baby, we were like sayin, "hmmm.. when will be our turn??" well momo.. urs will be real soon aight.. me? perhaps another 5-7 more years. if i get thru poly, it'll be like 3 years more in skool.. den yeah.. me and Asad also dun wanna think that far.. he told me b4.. "live fer todae. tmr is tmr punye hal." his good fren in camp told him that. and i find it kinda true. if u kept werrying abt the future, u'll be stuck there. one step at a time. hmm.. funnie huh.. a year plus since we knew each other. damn! how i treasure our frenship alot.. the nonsensical times.. still remember the tym whereby we dun have aniwherer to go.. and ended up walkin around aimlessly?? hahak~~! nonsense.. we can realli click la.. u layanin ma nonsense.. ish.. we grow up too fast la.. ish.. thanx fer being a big sista to me all this tym.. listening to ma probs.. listening to me cry.. lending me a listening ear.. a shoulder to cry on.. love u Babe.. stay happie with Khai.. see ya tmr!!!


What It Takes To Be A Good Friend
by Jwbrnco1

A good friend is always kind,
Should always speak their mind,
Their compassion should never end,
That's what it takes to be a good friend.

A good friend is there for you,
They are real, they are true- blue,
Their compassion should never end,
That's what it takes to be a good friend.

A good friend will be there when you marry,
A heart full of memories, they will carry,
Their compassion should never end,
That's what it takes to be a good friend.

They'll be there if your mother dies,
They'll weep with you when you cry,
Their compassion should never end,
That's what it takes to be a good friend.

If a good friend you do find,
Make sure they treat you kind,
Understanding they shouldn't lack,
And they would never stab you in the back,
On top of everything always remember,
A best friend is forever
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You are friendly, kind and caring
Sensitive, loyal and understanding
Humorous, fun, secure and true
Always there... yes that's you.

Special, accepting, exciting and wise
Truthful and helpful, with honest blue eyes
Confiding, forgiving, cheerful and bright
Yes that's you... not one bit of spite.

You're one of a kind, different from others
Generous, charming, but not one that smothers
Optimistic, thoughtful, happy and game
But not just another... in the long chain.

Appreciative, warm and precious like gold
Our friendship won't tarnish or ever grow old
You'll always be there, I know that is true
I'll always be here... always for you.

- Written and owned by Angela Lee Hillsley -

thanx fer alwaes being there, Momo!! Huggz!!!

GREAT!!! the best is yet to come!!!

D2K is in fer the wildcard round!! i was practically screaming ma lungs out!! like totally. i am so so freakin happie... that is ma buddy on the stage yo!!! i was at home in front of the tv with ma elder and younger bro and with ma bros' girlfren. i screamed and they were like "WOAH!!" they were fuckin shock!! especially ma bro's girl.. hehe.. cant help it. the thing that i dun understand is that at tyms.. in Singapore, a small city lyddis, where ppl are all so money minded, they DONT VOTE BASED ON TALENT. they vote bcos it's their frens or family members lyddat.. i mean.. wadda fuck. yeah i do vote fer ma fren. that bcos i knoe that they are good. and i do admit they can improve.. yeah. they are good. they are the best. but can they be the best of the best..? all they need now is the support of ppl and to prove that they can be the best of the best, if they werk hard fer it. i alwaes challenge ma fren. we talked abt loadsa things. we feel each other. though it's just like a year that we knoe each other, we dun bring each other down.. we listen. and when we listen, we think more. i'm really glad fer ma fren. the rest is up to them. "Ya Allah, give them ur rahmat and give them the light to improve and be the best."

"The language of friendship is not words but meanings."
Henry David Thoreau