happie? sad?


ok.. i got back from werk just now around 2145hrs... Asad came down to fetch me together with Atiq and Sarah.. welll... just when i was about to go and ciao from store, Karen said she wanna talk to me. and yeah.. she gave me the news...


i was having mix feelings.. i am happie yeah, but at the same time, droplets of tears formed in my eyes.. that place is the place that i have been with fer like what? 3 years and 14 days? goodness.. and now, it's just s0 sad to find out that hey, i'm gonna go to a new "home". i was controlling my tears til i cant control it animore. Asad said that he was very proud of me. Karen said she's happie fer me. but goddammit.. it's gonna be hard.. i have never ever thought of leaving.. a new store awaits me now..Karen said that i should have gone up like long ago.. like what she told me b4 "you want to but you cant. and now you can"..





to all partners that has made a difference in my life, THANX.

hmmmm... loads have been going on fine in ma life right now.. but not gonna deny it, things hasnt been quite on the good side either.. that's life that's why.. shit happens.

someone told me "it's not too late to change. buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih."

do you know that the feelings just sucks. and i really mean plain sucks. u are like a child lost in wonderland at times, feeling good and even though you don't knoe the people there, it doesnt matter as you are enjoying yourself.. and suddenly u are all alone in a cold dark hole. things lie in your hands. you have no one else but to make your next move by yourself. even if it means, that your next move might not be approved by your peers, if they come to know about it.

complicated? haha. i feel the same way too..

i took the someone's advice into real consideration. i cried. goddammit. i cried. terribly. never have i cried in front of him. ever since i got to knoe him, i have not show any signs of sadness.. no. Asad has been a great help. he just listens. both of them just listens and advice. the rest is up to me. and it's hard. the feelings that i felt yesterdae was indescribable. i look so bloodie burok with my no makeup on ma face and the fact that i was actually crying with no tissue in my hand. and that someone just listen, look, advice. thanx. i really appreciate it.

i woke up this morning with the stinging pain in my eyes.. the effect of after-cries. haha. thank gawd Lisa was there. we had loads of bloodie stoopid laughters b4 heading fer bed and in the morning, we had breakfast and she head fer home and i head fer Asad's place. me and Asad talked sumore, and den he sent me home and we did last editing fer his project.

for yesterdae, i have 3 guys to give my thanks to.
1 of which is Asad, fer listening and advice.
the other one is Kenneth fer your concern as u saw me crying across the "road" from Balaclava. KAYPO.
the other 2 shall remain anonymous fer now. though the other one just sat down and told me just let it be, and relax.

when the going gets tough, the tough gets going. maybe it's more on DPDP. (i knoe... so bloodie RP)



i was friggin disappointed. i was. i still am.
regrets? you friggin bet.
confused? hell yeah i am.
remorseful? well.. yeah i guess.








i cant turn back time, and grains has become porridge. what's left to say???





the best is to walk away....

10 things that i do to make me happy



thanx eh mira.. ko tagged aku.. so now i am at home..blogging

1. work/sleep
2. hanging out with Asad and frens
3. jamming
   
4. jog/exercise
5. take pictures
6. doing random things
   
7. blog
8. movie/shopping
9. shout shout clap clap
   
10. tanning(been a while since i went on a regular basis)

da la.. wanna sleep.. later werking @ 1330hrs..

will be werking fer one whole bloodie week except fer tuesdae and wednesdae.. tuesdae off dae.. wednesdae gotta go skool do some stuffs and den head to a coffee presentation.. nak join?

should we go fer it or not. ur poll please....



tagg me to gimme ur poll

contradicting huh??






i guess so too...

well well well...


hello hello.. i am my store right now.. just ot back from Singapore Museum.. bloodie hell was it fun.. i had a realy enjoyable time. and i learnt more about the history as well as greek mythology. i learnt alot. as in seriously alot.. i forgot to bring my USB cable. and thus, i cant upload the pics from my phone to mu lappie. wow. so clever indeed.

i am with Mira.. just updating and will be doing my Coffee Master stuffs later. will be having a presentation earl next month.. weee.. those interested, i will update again ya.. to conferm the timing and date.. cant wait.

ok la.. wana do some other stuffs ferst.

til later..
toodles.

one of the daes(fridae).. helpin Aisyah out for her photoshoot in NAFA.. and den head off to werk.. and also on sundae went out with Asad and his sister and bro-in-law.. they oicked me up after werk on sunday.. went to vivo just to hang iut and have dinner..

CNY. meet up with Ama and Asad.. cool shit..i went to Mustafa Centre alone.. to change for Asad his blades.. haha.. den meet up with Ama.. red is the colour.

2nd last dae of school.. miss them..

last dae of skool.. woo-hoo..

020208. Bai's bdae gathering at Bilal.. mama was like "haiz.. Asad tak ikot kite lagik.."
Asad was werking on thet dae..

the food...... yum yum....

DK photoshoot. yeah ..

one of the daes werking after school.

hang out with Ama at Mac. before that i went out with Asad to give him a treat..

they droped by my werkplace on Valentine's dae.. wat a pleasant surprise.. and Izie came by my gig at ITE Clem..

just hanging out..after werk..

tanning at Palawan Beach at Sentosa with girlfrens.. finally i feel the sun on me..

hmmm..


i am tired..
from werkin?
from handling cliches at werk?
from entertaining customer's stoopid nonsense at werk?
or maybe most of it getting angry at customer's remarks.. like just now..

i was bussing the tables outside.. and there's a group of 6-7 male customers talking about the classes that we have in singapore.. like lower class-middle class and higher class.. and the thing that strikes me was that this man made a remark saying something that "if people were of higher class, they don't have to do or werk at such places like Starbucks Coffee..."
i was like.. WTF sia.. izzit really a bad thing to werk at Starbux.. i mean hallo??? if it's not of these MIDDLE/LOWER class people, you HIGHER class people would not even be served YOUR bloodie cuppa. i mean think about it.. and please do not talk about class with me with all these bloodie classification.. get real.. some of ma colleagues are from bloodie well to do familly.. and they are still werking at Starbucks..

and you wanna knoe why??

it's because of the passion and they know what they want in life. they feel the satisfaction from seeing customer walking away with smiles on the face, knowing that it has made their day..
and i tell you werking in FNB line/ customer service line rocks as you can see people from different walks of life.. and i really meant that.. it opens your eyes to the real world. haha. sounds deep i know.. but it's true.. people who are in the same line as me will feel the same way..

change channel..

aniwae.. a lil something for Asad.. thanx for just being there and listening to every single rants on daily basis. i knoe that you don't have to, but u just would to let me know that you are listening and there for me. thanx for being appreciative of me. thanx for letting me be part of your family.. you're a gem Asad.. thsna for being a BIG part of my life. and i am so bloodie in love with you.. alwaes will.. really.. cross my heart and hope to die..

Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rest that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I





thanx Asad for alwaes being there for me..
i
love
you.

Live well. It is the greatest revenge.









i am having ma last laugh.. anione care to join?

Pleased...



i am pleased with maself for enjoying time at work for the past few days.. and going to tanning session on Saturdae totally ROCKS!!! it's been a long time since i felt the sun on my skin.. woo-hoo!!! gerek pe..


work and responsibilities are going on heavy for me.. being a COFFEE MASTER in store is crazee yet rewarding and fruitful.. helpin out the managers in a way or another.. and keep checking the-never-ending coffee passports.. mak ai.. but it's funnie when you see funnie werds in the coffee passports.. ma gawd.. inside jokes.. - oaky flavour.. hahaha!!!


and i am lucky to have Asad and understanding family and frens around me.. ader jugak orang yang faham.. to those who are not exposed to working life yet, be grateful and don't compare.. kalau nak compare pon tgk korang nye position and my position.


thanx Huda and Lina for giving me a surprise visit on the 4th Feb biler aku tgh keje and waited for me til i finish work..!! sayang korang!!!

i watched PS i LOVE YOU Midnite movie with Starbux peeps on Saturdae after tanning session.. aduhaii... sayu benar crite tu.. sad like fuck that i haven been handling it well.. crying b4 i went to bed.. hmmm... i guess i knoe how to divide my time la kan.. reached home at 5 am in the morning and den sleep a while and head back to work.. and yeah. i am not complaining cos i love what i am doing.. coffee is my passion.

anyone has got a problem with that? please step forward.


i asked my manager for anytime shifts thus, my schedule aint that flexible la kan.. as they know i am having ma hols and that i work to SUPPORT MYSELF.. this wednesday i'll be having a mini gig at ITE Clementi again during lunchtime. it's ok k Huda and Lina.. pasal korang keje.. and a lil last minute also.. see.. i do knoe in a way how to divide my time. maybe it's more than just what you see on the surface.


i have been busy with work that i did not have time to check my mails.. and i just read an email from Ain.. about training every monday.. alamak.. i cant commit to the every monday thingy ah.. asal monday ehk? tapi takpe.. takkan aku nak pentengkan diri sendirik kan. u girls just go ahead and have training.. and just now i was blog hopping.. and yeah.. read Endang's blogg.. aduhai.. asal nik sumer nik? aku terase la kan pasal asek keje je kan.. tapi understand understood la kay.. and like what Huda said, TAK LUPEKAN endang pe.. kalo aku betol2 lupekan korang, aku pon tak heran ehk ngan nak pi fotoshoot and turning up late for my IMPORTANT STORE MEETING that i HAVE TO attend every month as we NEED TO communicate with everyone about new nice promotional drinks that we are selling to our consumers..

and sometimes i have to have more than one meeting every month as there'll be at times meeting for LEARNING COACHES or meeting with COFFEE MASTERS.. or just helping out with RESPONSIBILITIES at werk.. yeah i knoe that from the outside, Starbux looks easy.. but that's where you guys are wrong.. we are not just about coming to shifts, clock in, serve, go for break and den clock out and go home. NO. these apply to only those who are not really dedicated to the job. it's more than just that.. it's about CONNECTING, DISCOVERING and RESPONDING to the needs of our customers and partners(that's what we call colleagues at Starbucks).. it's what you cant just see on the surface. trust me. some of us HAVE TO extend our shifts to cover up for people who are on MCs, who are sick, who last minute something bad just happen to them(God Forbids).. but little did we complain as we like what we are doing. so i do hope u guys understand. i don't expect you to, but jusy making my stand clear. and DO NOT EVEN TRY TO DPDP ME!!!


and on my part as a coffee master in store, to my SB-SN peeps reading this.. the plan that i have for the store is that we might be having a presentation either late of this month or early next month. it all depends with my schedule and my other full timers and other EXISTING coffee master. early next month i have loads of helping out to do in school and other what so and what nots.. whatever it is, i have to get back to my schedule and organiser planner.. busy3.. but yet, it won't bring me down.

i only have time to work this hols. like i say before, hols is our time to make and save as much money as possible. Endangs, sorry i cant join you guys.. i have to set my priorities right.. and NO IT'S NOT ABOUT PLEASING MA BF or what-so-ever. dier pon keje and skola. maseng2 busy. jumpe pon kalo ader time lepas keje or during break.. it's more on my career path.. and responsibilities as an OLDER SISTER, as a COFFEE MASTER, as a LEARNING COACH, as a FRIEND to just be there for my true friends who needs someone to just be there... and insya-Allah, more roles and responsibilities to come.. i take whatever that i can and if i think i cant handle it, i won't take the responsibilities..






IT'S ALL ABOUT KNOWING YOURSELF WELL.. u knoe yaself well, you can make things happen. and i've talked to my close friends about my future plan. but have yet to implement it. Izzie(Izyan), thanx for hearing me out after the photoshoot when we were on the way to our seperate designated place..




“It is easy to dodge our responsibilities, but we cannot dodge the consequences of dodging our responsibilities”


George Bernard Shaw
People are always blaming their circumstances for what they are. I don’t believe in circumstances. The people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and, if they can’t find them, make them.

John Burroughs
A man can get discouraged many times but he is not a failure until he begins to blame somebody else and stops trying.

Dr. Robert Anthony
When you blame others, you give up your power to change.








Arthur Ashe: Quotes on Responsibility
I have always tried to be true to myself, to pick those battles I felt were important. My ultimate responsibility is to myself. I could never be anything else.

last day of skool..


something for them..