this whole post is dedicated to Asad.


Dear Asad.
i dunno if you'll ever be reading this. but yeah, i still do wanna post it up. not out of stupidity, but for the whole world who's reading it knoe that i am so bloodie in love with you and that i am happy being with you despite all odds.

wow. it has been been 4 years since it all happened. well more that just 4 years, huh. but todae, at this very moment i am thinking of you. 4 years ago, on the 29th March 2004, you said your first "I LOVE YOU" to me. exactly on 03:08:20 hrs. upon receiving that message, i still can remember how my heart skipped a beat. how i took a pen and wrote that date in my diary. i was the happiest girl on earth at that very moment. i'm not trying to say that i am not happie now, obviously i am.

when we first watched our first movie together as frens and colleagues on the 20th Feb 2004, i have loved you.
when we played that messaging game on my way home from work on the 22nd Feb 2004, i have loved you.
when we watched Dirty Dancing Havana Night on 11th March 2004, i have loved you.
when we first held hands in the movie theatre on the same dae, i have loved you. (ooohh.. the butterflies in my stomach then)
when we had our first hug on 16th March 2004, i have loved you.
when we were sitting down by the Merlion on endless days, i have loved you.
when you ferst said "I LOVE YOU" to me, i have loved you.
when we got together on 3rd April 2004 at Palawan Beach sentosa, with the sky, sand, sea as witnesses, i have loved you.
when we had our big and tiny squabbles, i have loved you.
when you were sick, i have loved you.
when you went to NS, i have loved you.
when we had that biggie fight, i have loved you.

and i just want you to knoe that, no matter whatever that happens between us, be it good or bad, i have loved you and still am loving you.



though we have had our fair share of fights(i guess), i still am in love with you.
i'm sorry for all the quarrels that we had, and i am thankful that our relationship survived and stronger than just mere quarrels and rumours that can bring us down.



sometimes, in the past, it came to a point whereby i cant take the fights, i cant take the tears of handling things, i cant take the pain of being aparts.
and there was this one time, which i will never try to deny, i feel like giving up. we both felt it i guess. well. what can i sae, we were both still new in this kinda relationship maybe, and yeah, mostly maybe my fault, due to the age difference, i won't deny that my thinking is wayyy off from your thinking.

but you changed it all. you made me believe that we are worth the fights. we are worth the pain, we are worth the tears. you made me looked more into the relationship. you make me see things that i couldnt see.

when we were seperated for a few months. wow. that period was hell. only God knoes what i've been up to. i wasnt myself. i was like someone else looking into the mirror. things that you have never expected me to do, i did. until it came to a point of breakdown, that i told myself i hafta stop. i have to reverse everything back and be the girl that Asad wants me to be. it was tough, Asad. it was. i can still cry typing and thinking about it. i tried so hard to win you back, until i gave up. i told myself, with my heart breaking and tears welling up my eyes, but with a positive smile on my face, i told myself "if it's meant to be, it's meant to be..."
and then yeah, Allah open up your heart and you allow me to walk in back slowly into your life. 28th august was again the happiest dae of my life. when you gave up, i did not.. but when i did, you gave me back the will to stand up again. thanx for not giving up on me. and giving me the faith and strength, to not give up on us.



i know you always hear this often from me. be it in SMSes, or little letters and postcards or even from my lips. I LOVE YOU ASAD. and when i say I LOVE YOU, i mean it. like what was stated in the quote below, YOU ARE THE BESTEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPEN TO ME, MUHAMMAD ASADULLAH BIN MOHD SAID.





i love u asad, i dun care what they say. we are in this together. this is our floor, our battle, our strength, our will, our faith, but most importantly, i cherish US because, we are gifts from Allah to each other.





i love u Asad, and i will never be sick of saying it.

same me..







woo-hoo.. asad said i look chinese.. haiya..

k la. i wanna sleep ardi.. opening later.

haloha!!!!!!

i very long never update.. yaya has been asking me to.. i have loadsa pictures.. onli need to post them.. but when ehk.. haha.. bloodie busy la.. werk has been fun and stressful.. ma gawd.. need to reach and set expectations. goodness gracious me. haha. tmr/later got store outing with CH partners.. woo-hoo.. but i won't be joining them fer the ferst part of it.. will be joining them only after 4 lyddat.. hafta accompany Huda.. but den again, Huda still hafta get back to me..

aniwae.. i did something to ma hair again.. LOL.. tak abes2.. aniwae.. latest current obsession.. *EMPTY* by the click 5. awesome..
u guys should listen to it. as in seriously listen to it. the song accompanied me on lonely solemn nites..


k la.. i need to get some rest..









maybe we're trying..
trying too hard..
maybe we're torn apart...
maybe the timing is beating our hearts..
we're EMPTY...




i love u asad.

these people...

and loads more..


this picture has a place in my heart.. thus.. i shall put it up before i leave..
dammit..



todae, ppl officially knoe, i'm leaving SN.. some gave hugs. some of course will be happie that there's one lesser person to be nagging and chasing after them for coffee passports and tucking in of sherts.. nonetheless, i just wan all of you guys to knoe that i am seriously sad to be leaving SN. i actually made a video to you SN partners, but i guess, i'd rather not.. typing is better than showing.. i guess..

when i was first confermed a place to be a part of STARBUCKS, on the 15th February 2005, SN wasNT ready yet. i had my training at Orchard parade Hotel.. and that bid my goodbye there, and officially stayed at SN from the on.

i have never ever thought that i will one day get out of SN and move to other store. NO. that thought never did cross my mind. now that it's happening, i felt "depressed".. bloodie hell.. i dun feel like going home after werk. when i usually wanna really get home and rest. i stayed. for the past 3 years plus, SN was my second home. it's the third place, for some ppl, but the second home to me. i was there when both our fans can be used-the times when Evelyn Koh claimed that i sang our national anthem every sunday to them. i was theer before haagen daaz was built, and they made us shift our "play pent" to it's current place. i was there when we had lesser tables. onli God knoes how many times we change our plants there.. i was there when Auntie Pat water the plants every god-knoes-how-many-days. the IT fairs, the CAREER fairs, the IMF.. wow. crazee, but i have never once regretted joining Starbucks. and i'm glad to be a part of SB-SN.

i am the last of batch 346(izzit?) to leave SN. kamal left ferst, followed by fazli and Dean..
and now, it's MY turn.



to the old partners, keep the SN spirit alive. keep doing what you guys have been doing, teaching the people there. being KNOWLEDGEABLE.

to the new birds, you guys are not gonna forever be new in SN, thus, find ways to keep up with the old timers. soon, you guys will be teaching more newbies. be someone they can look up to. the old birds won't forever be there. help them out.

dun forget to keep updating your coffee passports.. and tuck in those shirts!
no one to sing while bussing
no one who will on the music while grinding coffees and washing dishes
no one will irritate when just feel like it
no one.. no one.. no one.......

I STILL WANNA BE THE BEST EXPEDITER CAN???????!!!!!!!!!!



if you guys need any help or just wanna talk, beep me up.. like what ayu said "not as if you're going to London..." yeah.. i'll drop by if i can..