this song makes me cry in class todae.
i was listening to it and i won't see you tonight while typing my previous post.
thanx for alwaes being there Iman.
and making me realise that i dun need "caring" friends.
i guessed this is what my aunt and uncle of mine talked to me about.
there comes to a point of time whereby you have to let go of all the unnecessary stuffs and concentrate on the important ones.
pfft. sucha big decision being made.
"throw it awae, forget yesterdae, we'll make the great escape."
i am making that great escape.


Your hazel green tint eyes watching every move I make
And the feeling of doubt, it's erased
I'll never feel alone again with you by my side
You're the one and in you I confide

And we have gone through good and bad times
But your unconditional love was always on my mind
You've been there from the start for me
And your love has always been true as can be

I'll give my heart to you, I give my heart
Cause nothing can compare in this world to you

And we have gone through good and bad times
But your unconditional love was always on my mind
You've been there from the start for me
And your love has always been true as can be

I'll give my heart to you, I give my heart
Cause nothing can compare in this world to you
I'll give my heart to you, I give my heart
Cause nothing can compare in this world to you

well. ysterdae has been an effed up dae in a wae.
some parts of it were awesome.
but most part of it was just nothing but a pain in the ass moments and shitheads nonsense.
i am tired.
tired to pretend it's not hurting me all throughout these 13 years.
i kept quiet.
'but you guys didnt see and read between the lines.
you guys ignored it.
what? is my mask to invisible to be seen?
or are you guys just blind and assume i'm alright?
with everything?



i guess what he said is true. "i have such caring frens"
caring with the open inverted comma.
i wonder am i dumb to still be here in the ferst place and not walking awae?
am i the one?
if you guys dun effing appreciate me, i can just throw awae the 13 years of frenship.
guess you guys didnt take time to get to knoe me.
to knoe me well enough to knoe what pisses me off and what makes me laugh til my stomach hurts.
but he does.
he knoe what pisses me off and how to make me laugh til my stomach hurts.
and not onli that, he also knoes what makes me melt and weak in the knees.
do you guys knoe?
so i can clearly say that quantity means nothing. rite?
i can knoe someone for more that 10 years, but i knoe no shit about the other party that more than ten years means nothing. nothing at all.



and you knoe what's more saddenning?
is when the person i need so much now,
is in camp, and apparently in a wae or another mad at me fer turning up late fer class.
i want his hugs.
his comforting arms around me to tell me it's alright.
his warm kiss on my forehead and tell me it's okae.



i gt to skool late as i was uber tired from last night.
and guess what, i didnt even enjoyed the second part of last night.
not even one bit.
if i noe this is gonna happen, i wouldnt even join you guys.
pfft.
kalo aku tak join cakap aku nik itu la ini lah..
you guys are still fine w/o me.
ape yang tak gerek kalo aku takde?
aku kluar dudok kedai kopi makan prata, korang pon tetap having fun pe kat dalam saner.
pakkal aku almost broke siakk.
if not i would've just tke the cab home. and i mean it.

i am tired of being the mannequin, the robot for you guys.
this have to stop.
i have to put a stop to this.
cme find me if you want.
other than that, count me out for the gatherings and stuffs lyddat.
i knoe ppl would say i'm stupid.
let them sae.
i couldnt care less.
if it's 'cause of all these "caring" frens i have that is gonna create a gap between me and my loved one, i'd be the ferst to pull out.
i stood up many times fer you guys.
too many times.
ppl grew up and changed.
i'm one of those,
i'm sorry.
thanx for the memories.
ciao.

David Cook - Lights On

Never really said too much,
Afraid it wouldn’t be enough.
Just try to keep my spirits up,
When there’s no point in grieving.
Doesn’t matter anyway,
Words could never make me stay.
Words will never take my place,
When you know I’m leaving.

{Chorus}
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone

You know we’ve been down that road
What seems a thousand times before
My back to a closing door and my eyes to the seasons
That roll out underneath my heels
And you don’t know how bad it feels
To leave the only one that I have ever believed in

{Chorus}
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone

Sometimes it feels like we’ve run out of luck
When the signal keeps on breaking up
When the wires cross in my brain
You’ll start my heart again
When I come along

{Chorus}
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone


Rihanna Feat Ne-Yo - Hate That I Love You

[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]
That's how much I love you (yeah)
That's how much I need you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
And I can’t stand you
Must everything you do
Make me wanna smile?
Can I not like it for awhile?

[Ne-Yo:]
No...

[Ne-Yo:]
but you won’t let me
You upset me girl
then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget
that I was upset
Can’t remember what you did

[Both:]
But I hate it

[Rihanna:]
You know exactly what to do
So that I can’t stay mad at you
For too long, that’s wrong

[Both:]
But I hate it

[Ne-Yo:]
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don’t wanna fuss and fight no more
So I despise that I adore you

[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah)
I can’t stand how much I need you (I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy (ooh)
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so..

[Ne-Yo:]
And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh

[Rihanna:]
Sad and it’s not fair how you take advantage of the fact that I
Love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain’t right

[Ne-Yo:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can’t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can’t let you go
But I hate that I love you so

[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic won’t affect me
And your kiss won’t make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you’ll probably always have a spell on me..

[Rihanna:]
That’s how much I love you
How much I need you
That’s how much I need you
That’s how much I love you
That’s how much I need you

[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]
And I hate that I love you sooo...
And I hate how much I love you boy (Hey)
I can’t stand how much I need you (I can’t stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy (giirl......)
But I just can’t let you go (But I just can’t let you go)
And I hate that I love you so

[Both:]
And I hate that I love you so.. so..


___________________________________________________


i'm so in love.
with him.
and the song right before this post is exactly how i feel about us.
pfft. he makes me miss him so much that even i hate it at times.
but yet the feeling s awesome.
when he calls, i practically jump for joy or run after my ringing fon.
crazee?
i knoe!!!
ok la. i wanna get back to stoning.
love love.
huggs.
mmmuaahhx!!!
(for him of course)

ok. hello.
am in class now.
i had an awesome weekend.
friggin awesome.
now, lemme share kae.

Saturdae.
Iman booked out.
picked him up at PasirRis.
send him home.
he came over.
went jalan raye with him.
he siap siap at ma place.
Bai helped us take picture.
will upload later at home.
met his Mak and Bapak.hehh.
and then he met my closest aunts.
and i met his frens as well.

after jalan raye, he sent me home, get his stuffs and den we went off to his place.
at carpark, saw his mummy and abah.
den they ask to come over.
he got changed and den we went out to meet adek and bf.
we spent time at labrador.
they slept. i cant get to sleep.
for the first time ever, in the middle of the nite, being alone, awake, didnt make me mad at all.
instead it made me feel contented and at peace.
just to see them all.
sleeping soundly.
that night, the sky was friggin clear.
i saw Tania even on the bike.
as we lay down with the sounds of waves crashing the breaker, and night full of stars, i smiled.

it was 4 mths since we met.
since we laid eyes on each other.
since he smiled at me, and i returned it back.
since first date.
since "cant live w/o me already?"
wow. so fast huh?
i love being around him.
cant explain the feeling but i am so in love with that feeling.

on Sunday, we went for breakfast.
i got the wrong order. but it doesnt matter. =))
got a free massage as well.
how awesome can my weekend be?

that must be the best 4th mth dating anniversary ever.
more are yet to come, i just knoe that.
Iman makes me smile.
and i love it.
can someone get me a mop please?
like now???
i'm melting ardi.

Laksamana - Gugurnya Bunga Cinta

Izinkan aku sayang
Menyentuh perasaanmu
Biar gelora cinta semalam
Izinkan aku sayang
Merinduimu selalu
Biar bergetar nalurimu

Walau berkali kau membenci
Cintaku takkan hilang
Himpunkan semua kemaafan
Dengarkan oh! rintihan

Andainya kau pergi
Gugurlah bunga cinta
Terpadam mentari
Yang menyinar oh

Pulanglah oh! sayang
Kau ku nanti penuh pasti
Rintihan kecundang
Untukmu oh! sayang..




Taufik Batisah - Usah Lepaskan

Yang terindah
Terlukis di bibir mu
Tak pernah ku lihat senyum mu
Sebegitu
Pudar kah sudah cinta yang ku beri
Berwarna warni segala
Yang dijanjikan ia

Chorus
Usah biarku bersendirian
Usah biar hati mu di tawan
Usah biar diri ku di sini
Seorang menunggu tanpa teman

Usah lepas genggaman tangan mu
Usah biar semua berlalu
Usah terlupa perasaan hati
Pertama kali kita bertemu

Usah lepaskan

Bridge
Tak mudah ku melupa segala yang berlalu
Ku ingin selalu bersama mu

Repeat Chorus

Ku tak peduli apa sebabnya
Engkau dan dia harus bersama
Mendungnya langit bila berkata
Kita patutnya masih bercinta
Usah lepaskan

Usah lepaskan
Usah lepaskan

Yang terindah
Terlukis di bibir mu
Tak pernah ku lihat senyum mu
Sebegitu

"i knoe i haven been the best that i can be or someone you wanted maybe.. but i'm trying as hard as i could to be just as much as the girl in your dreams. i love you, Iman. really do."


"u've always been my dream girl =)"




now can someone tell me to stop smiling?
to continue to do my PP posters?
he's oh-so-sweet. goodness.
i am getting al the sweet stuffs, ain't that right?
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..

last saturdae

i love him

yayy!!! bought fer him and maself!!!

weeeeeeeeee

nice kan?

at werk on sundae

his new cap

at skool on mondae

camwhore

went fer manicure


i had fun making noise and disturbing ppl with the Bolbos.. Hamy go fer eyebrow trimming.. hehh.. we all look good!!!!
weeeeeee


on tuesdae.

girlish or whatt

perangai nye muke

we aint stucked up y'noe.

jalan raye

huda and me

me and lina

bluek

me and huda's niece!!!

peace

girlie affair



cute ain't she?

burok!!

camwhore



3 manje!!



i had fun with the girls!!! more pics will be uploaded sooon.

hey Iman.
do u knoe this crazee girl here misses you so, that at times she just wish she could lay in bed all day and all night long, being in lala-land with you?
do u knoe that when she wakes up, u're on her mind that it was even normal fer her to check her hp first to see if there's any miss calls or msgs from you?
do you knoe that when she got out of the bathroom, she'd say "good morning sayang" to the fotographs on her mirror with such chirpy voice and endless smile?
do you knoe that upon getting ready for school, she'd blow kisses to the fotographs as stated above?
do you knoe that when she reach school,she'd chck her horoscope and yours and pray that the Almighty will keep you safe of your horoscope seems negative?
do you knoe that this girl here wil read ur msges over and over again and smile non stop as she's getting the good stuffs from you?
do you knoe that she felt like she's the luckiest and happiest girl ever to have met you and pray that the feeling will forever stay?
well apparently, this girl here hopes you do knoe how much you mean to her and wanted you o knoe what she's feeling as well.
i love you, Iman.




just another random edited picture.

I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you're not around,
and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
not even close
not even a little bit
not even at all.


this poem always makes me cry in the show.
and Iman, i'd love to watch PS, I Love You with you.
i'm honoured you actually asked. =))
love la seii..

to love at all is to be vulnerable.




vulnerable:
susceptible to criticism or persuasion or temptation
capable of being wounded or hurt

mak oda holding Rayn Aniq at Kak Ena's house

Kak Gelenger and me!!!

thi sis what my team mates do to me when they are bored

and make me as their bahan.

ezze and me on thrusdae

wednesdae night.
Fai's drunkard night's out.

ladie's night?

went to Lil India and do some random shit.

in the train otw to Lil India

mao and Mon

my new slippers.

my new hand made manicure.

at woodlands civic centre after party world

before heading to party world

mao mao

gt this temp shit when buying Twilight book

priceless possession. =))

camwhore

dun focus on me, check out the boy at the back.

sepet kan mater aku!

=)





me and Yaya last Fridae
again.