love them loads la seii..
syikin pulak cant make it..
had fun.. i think this was last 2 weeks..

Verse 1:
Here we are all alone in this room (oh)
and girl i know where to start and what we gonna do (yeah)
I'll take my time we'll be all night girl
so get ready babe I got plans for me and you (oh oh oh ooh)
It ain't my first time but babygirl we can pretend,
Hey lets bump and grind girl tonight we'll never end

Chorus:
Let me take u down
I really wanna take u down
and show you what I'm about
Can I take you now
Your body body oohh
Your body body up and down
So don't stop girl get it
quit playin wit it
Can't wait no more
I wanna take u down
I really wanna take u down
take u down, yeah

Verse 2:
Pretty girl lets take it off in this room
noo time to waste girl you know what we came to do ( oh oh oh ooh)
We got all night to try to get it right girl
I hope you're ready, hope you're ready, hope you're ready
I hope you're ready babe
Cause here we go you know how we do (oooh)
It ain't my first time but babygirl we can pretend,
Hey lets bump and grind girl tonight it never ends

Chorus:
Let me take u down
I really wanna take u down
and show you what I'm about
Can I take you now
Your body body oohh
Your body body up and down
So don't stop girl get it
quit playin wit it
Can't wait no more (I can't wait no more)
I wanna take u down
It ain't my first time but babygirl we can pretend,
Hey lets bump and grind girl tonight we'll never end

Chorus:
Let me take u down
I really wanna take u down
and show you what I'm about
Can I take you now
Your body body oohh
Your body body up and down
So don't stop girl get it
quit playin wit it
Can't wait no more (I can't wait no mre)
I wanna take u down
I really wanna take u down (I really wanna take u down)
take u down, yeah

Ooooo
Freakin' oh baby, like a pro baby and i bet that you (I bet you ooh)
Thinkin' oh baby, like you grown baby
So what you wanna do (what you wanna)
I'm gonna take it down baby nice and slow
So bring it let's goooo babaaaayyy (babaaaaayyy babaaaayyy)
Yea yea yea babaaaayyy (babaaaaayyy babaaaayyy)
(Come on baby)
Come on baby, come on baby

Chorus:
Let me take u down
I really wanna take u down
and show you what I'm about
Can I take you now
Your body body oohh
Your body body up and down (yae, yea, yea, yea)
So don't stop girl get it
quit playin wit it
Can't wait no more (I can't wait no mre)
I wanna take u down
I really wanna take u down (I really wanna take u down)
take u down, yeah(I said I wanna take u down)


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was texting with him just now.
i miss you la Iman.
a whole lot can?
pfft.
hmmm..
i feel like the weekend is coming nearer, and i cant wait til i get to see you again.
i love you sweetheart.
("v")
'v'

happie bdae to my klassmate, Ping!!!
he turned 18 on Mondae.
the best guy(gentleman) ever.
and me and PQ always wonder whjy he hasnt got a girlfren.
he deserve a good one.
someone caring, put others before him, smart, soft spoken, quiet but yet nonsensical.
happie bdae bro!!!!

Chris:
Weak, I have been crying and crying for weeks.
How'd I survive when I can barely speak,barely eat on my knees.

Keri:
But that's the moment you came to me, I don't know what your love has done to me.
Think im invincible I see through the me I used to be.

You've changed my whole life, don't know what you're doing to me with your love.
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me, a superhuman heart beats in me, nothing can stop me here with you.
Superhuman..
I feel so superhuman x2

Chris:
Strong, since i've been flying and righting the wrongs.
Feels almost like i've had it all along, I can see tomorrow.

Keri:
Where every problem is gone because I flew everywhere with love inside of me.
It's unbeliveble to see how love can set me free.

You've changed my whole life, don't know what you're doing to me with your love.
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me, a superhuman heart beats in me, nothing can stop me here with you.
Superhuman..
I feel so superhuman x2

It's not a bird, not a plane, it's my heart and it's going gone away.
My only weekness is you, only reason is you, every minute with you
I feel like I can do, anything..
Going,going i'm gone away, in love.

You've changed my whole life, don't know what you're doing to me with your love.
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me, a superhuman heart beats in me, nothing can stop me here with you.
Superhuman..

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this song makes me smile.
exactly the way i feel and the way he makes me feel..
"my only weakness is you, only reason is you, every minute with you, i feel like i can do anything."

i am so in love with him..

i always wanted to upload this but forget.
that doesnt mean i forgot about you, sweetheart, cos that's the last thing i'd ever wanna do too.
this was taken on the 8th. went for dinner with his family at Buangkok Sakura.
and adek came over with his bdae cake.
weeeeeee...
i am glad to able to spend time with you and your family dear.


loadsa hugs and kisses.

i had fun with they boy last weekend.
again he surprise me at werk.
he told me he booking out on saturdae.
but he popped by on Fridae when i was on attachment at Shaw Tower.
sucha sweetheart..
hee.

on saturdae, he came over and fetched me and then we went off to RP, pass Mak Oda the hairsprays.
den we went to Banquet to have our earli dinner. and walk around.
after that we go back to RP to watch Reflection. hee.
our ferst theatre show together. awesome.
after Reflection, we watched Record. we almost broke each other's fingers. and hands. loadsa shocking parts.
i am crazy. so crazy in love with him.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..

well. me and Iman missed the other 2.
are things gonna change?
well, there goes the nites of us hanging out, under the stars and waves crashing the breaker.
i am gonna miss all that.

blogger in skool is damn lagging.
i wanna upload pics. i tool loadsa pics with the boy.

and yesterdae, after werk, meet up with Dinie and Momo.
we had long chats. Didie fetched me from SB-SU. as Iman sent me to werk, i do have my helmet, so Didie fetched me. and obviously, i asked him for permission ferst. hehh.
we talked about our lives, things that matters and just sit and laugh and reminisce.
awesome shit.
i had fun.


me and the boy talked alot last nite before we both head to la la land.
"i wanna fall in love forever with...
the guy who...
the girl who...
the guy who...
the girl who...
the guy who...
the girl who...
....
...
..
.
..
...
....
and the list goes on.

i am so in love with him.
"everyone have their worries"
hehh. sorry about the worries hunn.
i dun care about it.
u've assure me enuff.
i love you, Iman.
a whole lot.
just so you knoe.
i want us to be like this forever too.
and being with you makes me happy as well.


"youre the reason i'm thinking.
i dun wanna smoke on this cigarrettes no more."

I’ll be living off your phone calls and your letters and your postcards
Every single word is like a secret wish come true
Well, who cares if we’re apart for the big days
It’s the small ones that made me fall in love with you








"you're the only gift that i need"



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I Do - Dashboard Confessional

Oh love, hang on,
I’ve gotta say this right
'Cause I only get one shot,
Once in my life
'Cause I want to grow old with you
And I want you to hold me forever

Do you think that you love me?
'Cause I do, I do, I do
Do you want that forever?
'Cause I do, I do, I do
Do you want me to share your life with you?
I do, I do, I do

Oh love, hang on,
If you're willing,
I’ll be strong
And I’ll give you the life that you deserve
'Cause I want you to know all of me
And I, I want to hold you forever

Do you think that you love me?
'Cause I do, I do, I do
Do you want that forever?
'Cause I do, I do, I do
Do you want me to brave this world for you?
I do, I do, I do
I do, I do, I do, I do


ok. i'm smiling my arse off now in class.
and my fren just told me to stop smiling with that look on her face.

You're the echoes of my everything,
You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
You're the laziness of afternoon,
You're the reason why I burst and why I bloomed..
You're the leaky sink of sentiment,
You're the failed attempts I never could forget.
You're the metaphors I can't create to comprehend this curse that I call love..





i miss the soldier.
the one whom they called pokok. haha.
the one who makes my heart skipped a beat or beats even faster whenever his ringtone come up.
the one i am so insanely madly in love with.

i miss you Iman.

"if it's over let it go now.
come tomorrow it will seem so yesterdae, so yesterdae.
i'm just a bird who's already flown awae."

my soldier is returning tmr!!
yayy!!!
i am so happie la. cant wait.
miss him like eff.
i am at MS now. hanging out with Atiq and Mok is reaching in a while.
taking cab home. cos....


pay is in half an hour time!!!
woo-hoo.
i wanna fetch Iman home tmr.
cos i skipped Fridae's leson onli once.
i am surprised my self.
hahah!!

aniwae, yesterdae was abit of pain.
be happie Asad.
you can hate me for the positive changes.
like i said, "people grow up and change. and i guess i am one of them"
i talked to Mat about it just now.
he said, he can see me mature in that sense.
thanx Mat. i needed it.
i am hapie that i finally get it off my chest.
clarification has been done.
i feel lighter now.

Iman should be proud of me.
he always say something like "do it when you're ready".
thanx for being understnding dearest.
i have been thinking of you.
and yah. i missed you that sometimes i am not sure if i should cry.. hahah
cos you dun wanna worry about me out here while you're in there.
i love you.
i cant wait to see you Iman.
onli God knoes how much i missed you.
have loadsa things to share with you about the whole of my week.
see you soon darl!!
mmmuuahhxx!!!



PS: elmo misses you too.

why cant some guys just get it into their thick skulls that when we girls say we dun wanna get to knoe them means we dun wanna get to knoe them?
even if it means we used to knoe them last time?
pfft.

i just got to knoe who one of the anonymous numbers are.
i think my kuzzie must have given him my number again.
it's one of the guys my kuzzin used to be closed with when he was in Canberra Sec.
forget it ok Mr Goalkeeper then.
i dun wanna get to knoe you again.
i dun wish to.
i am happie with my life now.
happie with Iman.
crazee in love with him.
head over heels for him to be exact.
happie with my frens and family.

and hell yeah i DONT need you.
i dun need your shoulder or better said, i dun need you in this perfect life of mine.
so get this into your thick skull.
"eff off."
am not being proud. i am saying this as nicest as i can be.
and consider "eff off" as humble enuff.
i can say werst things.

remember how i tried to contact you last time.
i was only 14/15 then.
remember how crazee i ws over your tall built and that deep dimple?
well. that was all in the past.
please.
get over it.
you went missing fer wad? 6 years and now you're back?
i survived didnt i?
it goes to show you meant nothing.
NOTHING. at all.
so yeah.

GET OVER IT.
"and so you're back? from outer space?"

HE TEXTED HE TEXTED!!!!!

his fren smuggled a phone in as he has gt 2 phones. and Iman texted!!!
but i replied kinda late.pfft.
i wasnt feeling rather well.
so, the moment i reached home, i went to bed with the intention of waking up at 9 plus to eat.
but no, i didnt.
i slept all the way till 11 plus. and when i replied, no replys came back to my phone.


B.. Its me.. My fren smuggle hp bab dier ader 2 hp.. i just wanna tell u i love u soo much.. And i miss u.. Cant wait to c u syg on fri! Mmmuuaahx.. Looking at the spaces between my fingers every moment.. I love u.. I love u.. Mmmuaaaahx! Reply k? Daa..

but i fell asleep.
he must've waited fer my reply la..
pfft.
i'm sucha lousy date.
i love you too Iman..
i cant wait to see you as well this Fridae.
but i werking.. how?



and wth, there 2 anonymous number that called me.
one was just a missed call. and the other was a miss call and i actually picked up while i'm asleep.
futhamucka.
i dunno la both who.
i called back den both off.
and then, the miss call texted me "hi. are you Fai?"
i replied "who's that?" and he never replied me anymore.
siao lala.

todae i shall sleep late.
who knoes Iman might text again.
i miss him so much la.
cant get to hear his voice.
his smile on the fon when he answer the call.
i miss Iman.
i'll wait for you, sweetheart"

i shouldnt have read your posts.
nope. not at all.
painstaking?
i wonder if it still does?
i shouldnt have read it now.
it causes tears in my eyes while i'm working.
have you found that queen yet? i wonder.
do you still miss "the" scents?
"the" touch that makes you have the tingles inside?
"the" hugs that comfort you?
"the" kisses that take your troubles away?
do you?


i'm sorry. i cant help but to feel a sense of paranoia and jealousy.
i knoe it's been a long time since it happened.
pfft.
i guess its just me.
maybe i'm tired?
maybe i'm sick?
maybe because i miss you a whole lot?

i delete every memories i have of the past.
have you?
can you?
clear ma doubt can?



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please?




i just reach home from werk.
perhaps i shall sleep on it.
i miss you Iman.
more than you ever knoe.
more than anything else in the world.
i wonder what you are doing now at the jungle. haha.
haiya..
actually i dun feel like posting this up and just save this in draft.
but you told me to blog about everything so that you can read it when you get back.



i miss having you here physically, not just in my heart.

welcome to the month of November.
it's still early to blog but heck.
i am at werk now.
i just wanna say that i have a time of my life taking the cab to go to werk just now.
as a matter of fact, i dun feel like taking a taxi that's driven by Indian driver.
no. am not being racist. i mean i am of the same race.
he drove like nobody's business. it's either it;s still too early for him or he's drunk or he drives with his eyes close.
ma gawd.
the wae he swerve, the way he change lane like so close to the car infront makes me held on to my seat like it was the last taxi ride ever.
felt like a roller coaster?
no. worst than that maybe.
pfft.
stupid morning.
but when i reach store, i was feeling a lil better ardi.
i am werking with the coolest people ever.
wan.
he came out with the term "my manager-the Pornstar"
idiot.
some ppl knoe why. goddammit.
i felt so disgusted by the pic la.
and to think that it looks a bit like me.
futhamucka.
i was actually down with a alight fever at werk yesterdae, but i am feeling a lil better todae.
i telan some panadol and head off to bed when i reached home from dinner with Iman's younger bro and Shikeen.
Izzat's werds - "ever heard of turning around and saying "hello?""
yeah. i was otw to werk yesterdae and he was behind me. bt i didnt see him. like duhh.

-and this is marilyn here.-

ok. sidetrack. idiot marilyn.
aniwae. he was otw to go jamming.
and when i reach werk, i text him la that i end werk at 7 plus or 8 if he wanna go home together.
so he went to a gig at paya leba den made his wae here.
the three of us grabed a bite at kfc and just walk around aimlessly and head home.
crazee boy.

todae i werking with Marilyn, Wan and LiXin. weeeeeeeeeeeeee.
and Azilah is here too. apparently she like dun have house lyddat. hhah
she had breakfast with Noel and she was from closing last nite.
not tired sumore. she dun seemed tired at all la.
siao lala you knoe this Beyonce.
so far i am having fun at werk.
so much fun.

i miss Iman.
and yeah i knoe the feeling is mutual.
pfft.
wun get to talk to him til Fridae.
field camp.
ok la. wanna get back to werk.
i love him.
he knoes what to do when he miss me as i'm doing the same as well. =)




is this love
is this love
is this love
is this love
that i'm feeling?